ASLYN-THAT'S WHEN I LOVE YOU

When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love you
I love you
Just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you endlessly
And when you're mad cause you lost a game
Forget im waiting in the rain
Baby I love you
I love you anyway
Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie, it made you cry
That's when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you can't quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
That's when I love you
I love you more than you know
And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you give when you show up late
Baby I love you
I love you anyway
Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what
That's when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn the more i love
The more my heart can't get enough
Thats when I love you
When I love you
No matter what
No matter what

i decided on it once i knew it .

ok ,, that's my one and

only choice . i have no choice

at all .

at first i thought it wouldn't

affect me at all and i can't

wait to destroy it .

but now ,, as the time drew

nearer ,, i'm getting afraid .

afraid of the pain .

afraid i'll miss .

sigh . ppl normally regret after

they've lost sth . now

i know i'm gonna lose it sooner

or later but i can't

cherish it . sigh ~

as time goes by ,,

his face slowly disappearing

from my mind . his name ,,

his call and his text msgs

slowly disappear too .

i'm slowly starting to get used to

it . even if i'm not used to it ,,

wad can i do ?

so ,, i made myself to get used

to it . slowly ,,

i'll forget his smell and his

everything . and by

the time it come ,, i guess

its time to get a new one . (:

just got home from work .

so tired . dun feel like

going out . baby think

wants to slack at tpy .

grace with bf .

kelly with bf too ba .

anyway ,, i'm not feeling

very well also la .

hmmm ,,

i dunno wad's gotten onto

me but i feel like

i dun have any close frens

anymore .

i just dun want and i

dun feel like to associate with

ppl . oh god ! i'm turning

anti-social . even to my

very best fren !

cure me cure me !

hope everything goes smoothly

for me on monday .

i and i hope that he'll

find someone he love soon

so i can give myself

a stronger reason it's

time to give up.

and i promise i won't

do anything to break

them up again .

i'll STOP contacting him .

aiya ,, i now also never

contact him liao

so just go ahead only lorr .

ok ,, turning emo soon .

better stop it . off to sleep . (:

am supposed to work today .

but uncle say there's no banana

to sell . LOL . that's why no work

so my money fly fly again . haha .

that's why i'm here to update .

nvr go out because my stomach

is feeling bloated today .

so not feeling very well

and no place to go la .

sians...

hmmm ,, had my chinese oral

exams today .

but i dunno wad it is for .

o level prelim ? or mid-year ?

oh ,, i dun give a damn .

nowadays de spammers .

tsk tsk tsk .

my god la .

ah lian ? define that for

me first please .

have not been hearing

this word for long that's

why i dunno wad it

means la . paiseh uh .

and prostitute ? define also

leh . i really dun understand

why by looking ah lian

got link to prostitute leh .

i thought prostitute are those

that are being fcuk by

alot of ppl ? he/she says

he/she's confused whether

i'm single or attached

but dun u think she's making

us more blur by making

ah lian and prostitute to

link . LMAO .

ok ,, stopped about those

no brains and no names de

spammers le la .

i only entertain spammers

who put down names .

be it real or fake name . LOL .

about BGR ,, i guess

i dun wanna step into

a new one . it's very tiring

u know . imagine u have to

get used calling others "dear"

or wadever . and imagine

u got to get used to other guy

getting close to u ,,

meeting everyday ,,

sending text msgs

and talking on the phone .

i guess maybe i've said all

this because i dun have anyone at

heart now . but i hope everything

takes times la .

not alot ppl knows about

our break-ups unless those

who read my blog frequently and

ppl close to me . and i found

it ridiculous as this break-up

was due to my fault [for his case]

and i didn't even use a single

phone number on the list .

[i guess only ppl knows about

the reason for our break-ups

knows wad i'm talking . LOL .]

hmmm ,, guess that's about

all .

---off to watch dvd or study . :D---

omg. have been decades since i last update. LOL.
lazy la. hmmm,, dunno why i've given all my dear
frens the idea of pregnant? LOL,, no worries.
i'm not. (= and me and him broke up again.
due to some reasons too. i dun wanna sae. bleah ~
am loading photos now so that i can update.
oh great. didn't know that photobucket can
upload so many photos at one time now. (:


feel like going out later but i'm like no place to
go ,, no one to meet . LOL . great,, i'll use this time
to do some revision for my coming mid-year exams !
dunno whether wan go alone for revision anot . so
that i can focus. but scared later boring leh. later cannot
focus then alone more worst. BOO~


sigh ~ dunno wad to do. guess that's just part of life.
ok la. i'm bored ! =S
i guess i'll be closing down my blog soon .
i'm just so lazy to on the computer to
sit down there to update what's been going
on and to upload photos. zzz . anyway,,
it's gonna be the same routine.


i can see that i keep changing my profile and
i'm really sick and tired of it la. I DUN WANNA
GO ROUND AND ROUND IN THE SAME CIRCLE.
although i know it's kinda diff. to give up a 3 years
relationship . and maybe a little love is there but
i think i'm more used to him by my side la.
now that he's not by my side ,, i do feel lost at times.
sigh ~ wad to do. it's not the first time anyway.
but i admit i'm at the wrong now but sae really one,,
who knows when he'll break with me again . right ?


that's just the selfish thought of mine. but wad to do?
that's just me. he gotta love me for who i am.
oh,, i just love the weather today. raining. GREAT .
better than the hot sun shining at me . yucks~
i'm sorry for the bikers ah. haha .
guess i'm getting a little naggy. and here comes the photos !














those were the times.



kah ling, xue ning and me taken quite long ago.



kor kor and me. (:



graceY and me .



these were the evidence of running away from PE. heh.



this is a ah toot i saw on the way to school one morning . =x



the lady on the left has a very weird feature. too bad it isn't that clear. scary la.



XIAOGUI ~







this is how boring our english lesson can get.











snapshot of her while she's smoking. she did that to me first !



dun she look so pro cleaning the glass?



ok ! that's all about that. =D

ok ,, i'm back with him !!!
due to sth which i can't
really say . hmmm ..
alright . everything was
fine for now . but for
a few weeks later ,,
i dun really know .
sigh ~ but i do hope that
this would go on forever la .
i know saying forever
sounds stupid or childish or
lame but i dunno wad to
sae la . haha .


alright ,, grace sister is
starting school already !
and i can see she dun
really like that school .
she is so racist la . then
ask her be with so many
malays . LOL . but
anyway ,, i hope that
that school would make
her become not racist
and i do hope that
everything goes well
for her . (:


i'm feeling so sick lately .
giddy . giddy . giddy .
and i dun really like that
feeling . my sweet sweet
boyfren am going to
bring me to see doctor .


about the job of kelly's .
yes ,, we still went in the
end due to lack of cash .
it was sth like a fine
dining dinner ? but cause
we dun have any experience ,,
we went there wiping those
wine glasses . we were late .
cause i need to make my ez
link card as it was lost and
kelly went to buy her black
pants and altered it .
photos of our cute uniform
would be uploaded soon .
when i'm free . heh .


but i was sick on saturday so
i never go . BOO ~ there goes
my money ~ ok ,, i'm gonna rest
awhile more and then to the
doctor . so afraid of wad the
doctor might sae . update soon !

was tired in school the whole day today . yawns ...
took napfa test . all also not bad except for my
standing board jump . argh !


then here i am waiting for kelly's call to go
work . it's at fullerton dunno wad
waterboathouse de la . but she haven't call
guess not going le ba . sigh ~ no more money
again . sadded ~ but it's ok la . cause i'm tired too .
heh . i'm sooo short of cash now la . BOO ~



dunno wad to type liao . i'm very tired now
and my mind is empty . guess i'm getting a
nap soon . =) update soon .

slacking in school the whole day .
slept almost the whole day la .
zzz . except for a-maths . dots .
dunno why just feel so tired .


my mum is pregnant and i wonder
was that a good thing or a bad one ?
i'm just so used to being the youngest
and suddenly i'm going to have a
younger sibling in dec . oh my ...
and when the time i turn 18 ,, he/she's
only two months old . my god ! and my sis's
is already 21 ! how old . guess we can
be the parents of the baby instead of siblings .
lol .



guess that's all i wanna sae ba .
phew ~ so tired about school .
later still going to work . but ...
i'm gonna meet graceY first .
(:

sorry frens for not updating . haha .
nth much though . been rotting at home ,,
slacking at school or working lorr .
but i've been independent recently la .
i'm so proud of myself . i can go
town and shop alone . lol . somehow ,,
it's kinda fun too la . i still have my cig to
accompany me . lol .

this break-up with him was sooo
weird . i dunno how to describe but
it was just weird . usually ,, i would
be msg-ing a number of guys and
meeting up with them . but this
time ,, i didn't . although ,, i did reply
when they msg me la . but i just dun have
the mood to go out with them leh .
sigh ~ dunno why also . friday is my
sis b'dae . and he's being invited .
oh gosh . gonna meet him . dunno
why feel kinda anxious . =x

hey frens ,, i found a new way killing
boredom at home ! it is ...
buy dvd and watch . those lian xi ju
that kind . lol . am watching "it started
with a kiss" . erm ,, NICE . haha .

didn't went to school . actually wanted to
sleep longer . then the stupid uncle ask
me go work early . no ppl help . zzz
so ,, no choice . i got to wake up now .
so here i am . blogging . LOL .

ok ,, update till here . i still got to
finish writing those letters . got
to pass to him tml le . =S

ok ,, once again . i'm at thomson
using com . haha . but this time
with kelly . i know u guys are going
to say that my blog skins is in a mess .
but what to do . i like the design
but not the way they organise .
so bear with it until i find a better
one kks .argh ~ i dunno why i just
miss him so much la . sian . i
wanna learn to be strong . i see others
even though missing the other partner
alot ,, they just kept quiet and keep their
sorrow to themselves . they won't even
go and msg them and tell them . that's
so unlike me . i must learn to be strong .
i must i must i must . wad must i do ?
must i really contact guys then i can forget
him ? but i myself know that's
only temporarily only . sigh ~
wad to do . life's full of ups and downs .
i'll take it as it's part of growing up (:
i wanna forget him . i really
wanna do . it just feel so hurt la .
so hurt . so hurt . so guys gave me
their contact . but till now i still
haven't contact them . i put the
right choice by not giving them
my number . if not ,, they sure
irritating la deh ~ sigh ~ i really
dunno whether i should step out
now and msg them . i dun wanna
stay like this with him forever .
i so wanna meet him everyday
to care and love him and feel
his love and care too .
FCUK-ED MYSELF . turning emo
again . zzz . -.-

i'm currently at kelly's house now
waiting for her to be prepared . then
go my house then sleep awhile then go
peninsular then go paragon then maybe
off to thomson . hmmm ,, i'm so jealous
after reading so many of my fren's blog .
they've all found their happiness . wad's
left with me ? *laugh* we both used to
be so loving . loving that others will
jealous those kind . well ,, wadever .
but when we came to quarrel ,, others
will be afraid . i dunno wad happen between
us and i dun really wanna know . i just know
that he broke my heart . and seriously .
if u dun contact someone ,, how could u
have he/she's number ? fcuk-ed . anyway ,,
i can't be bothered to listen to his
explanation . and he always says : what did u
do in the past to make me trust u . BUT ...
he didn't think of himself too . i cannot forget
about xiaozhu's incident . sigh ~ although we're
not together . but when i ask him ,, why can't
he just tell me ? alright ,, maybe the problem
is we've got too much past and we treated each
other like fcuk in the past . mine was : jeremy tan ,,
timmy ,, rudi ,, jia he ,, dickson ,, andy ,, bikers .
his : bk ,, xiaozhu ,, yuru .
i know i did more mistakes than he did . but i
still forgave him and trust him cause i
know ppl do make mistake . but wad about him ?
he doesn't even trust me at all . hello ~
the word is TRUST ! argh ~ the more i
sae the more angry i am la . forget it .
let's let nature take its course . we're
still frens now and i won't bother to
go and check his account or phone or
wadever shit . why hand be so itchy and
make myself heartache right . i haven't been
given other guys my number till now and
i haven't contacted a single one of my last time
fren . because i dun wan them to think that
i got boyfren then never find them then no
boyfriend then go and find them . i wanna
let them know i'm not that sort of ppl .
sigh ~ ok ,, i guess that's about all
ba . i'm going to pierce smiley today . yay !!
*claps*

quarrelled and quarrelled again . haiyo .
anyway ,, i'm at gracey house now . lol .
kelly is here also . although she and ah
mel back together ,, but things dun
go so smooth for her too i guess ? i really
dun understand wad guys are thinking .
aiyoyo . tsk tsk tsk . hmmm ,, girls tell them
we want to be alone is want them to stay ma .
why ? why ? why must they really leave us
alone ? they dun understand la . so fcuk man .
but if they dun leave us alone ,, we would ask
them to go wor . so contradicting right . actually ,,
is it we girls are just so contradicting ? aiyo .
dunno wad to say la . wad ever . just wanted to
update because have been busy working .
lol . that's all . love is bullshit . it brings nothing
but heartache . dun wanna step into it again .

i went to meet him and pass him back the turtle .
then i dunno why i cannot control my temper and
i began to pack all the stuffs and put inside my bag .
and i sat outside his house burning all those things .
he throw his temper too and we began our big fight .
i went into his house and take more things . oh my ...
then we fight . then bleed because he threw the cup .
i accidentally threw away our ring . i wanted to keep
it de . but dunno why all mixed inside my bag and i
just threw it away . i searched and searched . i couldn't
find it . so paiseh la . search the bin . luckily when we fought ,,
grace came to my rescue . but he still beat me up .
that was the first time . of course i was sad . but i know
that was what i forced him de . sigh ~ i now know that
is not i hated him . it was just that i'm JEALOUS . ok ,,
i admit . dots * anyway ,, i'm sad . in the end . kelly and
baby came . i'm glad . but i still wasn't happy . sigh ~ they
already try to make me happy le . thanks . then i still
went to meet him in the end . and we promised to be frens .
we gou gou shou le . heh . but my heart still aches . OMG .
i dunno wad i wan la . my heart still wants to be with him .
but ... i know we couldn't make things out . and i rather to
be sad now than next time again . anyway ,, the wound is
already there . vanessa and grace is still happily with their
boyfriends and i'm happy for that . but things doesn't go so
smooth for kelly ,, me and baby . but i'm still glad we're frens . sigh ~
so if kelly and mel patch during weekend ,, so i'll left with nobody to meet .
then i'll go meet him and his frens . but if kelly and mel no patch ,,
i'll meet her then . (: ok ,, i miss my fren . PDF .

for those who would be reading my post ,, please add me in frenster and msn . (= sorry for the inconvenience caused .

kammygkx@hotmail.com

i am now so damn bloody angry with that someone can .
he deleted all my msn and frenster . luckily he didn't
delete away my blog . i'm so angry la . change my password .
fcuk . then deleted all of my guys contact list . then his leh ?
fcuk leh this kind of guy ! argh ! feel like giving him one tight slap .
why ? he can make girl frens ,, i can't ? well well ,, i shall show him
my power ! fcuk-ed up guy man ! see his msn jitao is dulan la !
wa ,, later going to delete all of his photos uh ! see le jiu dulan .
the more i see ,, the more i wanna beat him man !
wa ,, really is from love turn to hate lehh . power leh . fcuk it man .
have never been so angry before !!!!!!
hmph ~ sorry sherlyn that i didn't tell u wad happen .
i dun wanna talk about it anymore . anyway ,, it's over .
wa ,, i'm really damn angry now leh . can anybody just kill him ?
argh !!!!!! ccb ! mother fcuker . emo turtle ? emo lan uh ?!
i cursed him !!!! cursed him to have AIDS uh !
cursed him that nobody ever wants him anymore !
cursed him that he eat also will choke !
cursed him that he cross the road kena bang by car !
cursed him that he kena caught by police then sentenced forever !
cursed him walk also will drop into the drain fall down then die !
cursed him bu de hao shi jiu dui le !
cursed him cursed him cursed him !




ok ,, forget about that bloody idiot .
why get angry just because of one bloody idiot ?
he's not worth it la . he is nothing but one mother
fcuker ! an idiot is an idiot . cannot blame .
i shall delete him from my life from now onwards .
nobody is supposed to say his name from now onwards .
i'll get angry no matter who say .
i'm going to throw away everything that has got to do with him .
this includes the pig ,, the turtle and everything .
every single little thing that i see that will reminds of him ,,
i'll throw ! get it ! i dun care whether he likes it or not
because this is me !!!! maybe i'll return him the turtle
because that's his b'dae present but i'm gonna throw
away that dirty pig ! puke ~



actually wanted to go to peninsula de . then call anthony
he never pick up . i wanna pierce smiley .
ok ,, cool cool cool ~ i'm trying to make myself
cool down . i'm gonna do everything again .
frenster and everything . sigh ~ so troublesome la !
blame who ? that mother fcuker !

am at thomson now again .
lol . i just love their com la .
feel like bringing them back home . lol .
i know i cannot come here at night .
i only can come here in the morning .
therefore ,, i won't get to see him .
hmmm ,, i'm with grace now . she's playing
audition ! yay . i play till tired liao . lol .
hmmm ,, i broke up with him again .
this time is i say de break de .
dun ask why . i'm just lazy to explain .
now ppl ask about me and him ,,
i'll just say "zhe yang lorr " or change
topic . because i know wad they're going
to say . aiya . again . sure patch de la .
OMG ~ how are we going to last if this is
always going to happen . i'm tired le .
sigh ~ soooo tired can . i promise myself
not to ever be soft-hearted and go back
to him ? i dun really know . i need the
support from my frens . i hope they would .
anyway ,, i'll lead my life happily .
i'll show to him even without him ,,
i'll live happily too . but ... i still miss
him . suck-ed ! ok ,, stop it . this is so normal .
frens so there's nothing to worry about .
update again ! think later going tpy and meet
baby and slack ba . (=
i'm more than just fine .

currently at thomson now .
going to play audition .
so before i play audition ,, i
wanted to blog first if not
i won't have the time to blog . (:
went to sports day today .
the weather and everything
was fcuked up . so hot . and i should
buy the t-shirt xs instead of s .
so big la . hmph ! nvm .
then after sports day went to take
cab then went to ah dear's house .
then prepare le go eat KFC . heh .
then went to plaza sing . took
neo-print . (: then played rock fever .
then we came thomson . cause already
ten plus then ngee ann should be close le
then we didn't check the price of puma
jacket lorr . so sad . then just now the
pisang uncle call me . say my time for
work change . became thurs . means i
only work wed ,, thurs and sun .
actually is wed ,, fri and sun . uncle so
not fair la . dote on xiuwei so much
then all the long hours give to her .
fcuk sia . she wan to earn money ppl
dun wan meh . how can he lidat de .
jitao is bias lorr ! but nvm . since
i'm working with wanting and
weiping . heh heh heh . i wanna find
a new job first . i dun wanna help
that heartless freak to work anymore .
he dote on xiuwei so much then ask him
to call her work la if cannot find ppl to work .
why still call us man . she soooo good ma .
ok ,, dun say so much . scarly she read my
blog and thought i JEALOUS . please lorr .
i'm just not happy with how uncle
treat his employer . i simply just hate him la !

ok ,, school reopen already ! damn sians can .
same old thing . study study . homework homework .
argh ~ going to ki siao le la . think hao le .
if i fail my O this year ,, i'm going to work first .
then save money then together go take
private O with ah dear and maybe grace .
curious why ah dear ? cause me and him is
together again ! ahhha . i know u ppl would say
expected . so enough of it . if u ppl are going
to say that ,, save it . i've had enough of it . (:
friday is our sports day liao le . and i can't work
again . ): $54 fly away . BOO ~ some more our class
t-shirt got problem . eeeeyer . so not fair to my
brother winston la . know why brother ?
cause he has the same surname as mine . LOL .
but i know i can't blame roliah too .
she's also been stress designing our class t-shirt .
as u know . our class is so fussy la .
this cannot that cannot . oops . dun beat me uh . LOL .
and of course ,, i'm one of them la . =x
hmmm ,, ok la . update till here . i know
i keep saying i want to leave school . but after i leave
school ,, i know i'll miss my classmates .
sigh ~ but is the classmates not the school ok .
so ppl ,, if u have seen my post ,,
please do hold a gathering often ok .
i promise to be there uh ! haha .
and eh ,, kelly ,, remember we have to go bugis
walk walk lehs . u buy for ah mel ,,
i buy for turtle kks . heh .
hmmm ,, and uh . remember to design
me ,, vanessa and yours de t-shirt hors .
one month hors !!!! lalala~

went to meet grace and baby yesterday .
hmmm ,, after that kelly and amy came .
after watch finish hua yang shao niao shao nu
jiu went home . reached home around one plus to two lidat .
ok ,, i hate it when i get soooo emo at
night . and yes ,, i really didn't like it .
sigh ~
went to school today . suck-ed . i got really
angry and everything is pissing me off .
i used my phone during our break time at the
canteen at about 12:30 . and our school says that
we could only use our fone in the canteen only
at 01:30 . so ,, teacher confiscated my phone .
but shit them can . i'm having my break cause
i'm having lessons at 01:30 . they are just soooo
unreasonable la . and i know i couldn't argue
with them cause teachers are always right .
so ,, wait till friday ,, meet the parents session ,,
then i could take back my phone . darn .
and my classmate has a long hairstyle . so
that dm of that lj school ,, helped him to cut
it was ugly can . and he uses my phone to take it .
and it was inside the camera album . and yes yes ,,
i have a photo wearing school u smoking . and yes ,,
it would be shit if they went to touch my phone .
and i heard from vanessa says that the flat head
teacher says that he's not at fault . which means
even if i apologise ,, he wouldn't too right .
and he says that i would not get into the class
if i didn't apologise to him . as if i like to attend his class
like that la . i can always come in at recess time on
monday to skip his lesson then wed after a-maths go
home liao lo . then lidat no his lesson ma . lol .
so clever right me . but if i am force to no choice ,,
i'll just say "sorry la" and walk away . =D wicked wicked me .
but i just dun like the way my school handles thing .
i really wish to transfer school . but come to think of it ,,
wad for? it's only a few months left . i'm sure i can tolerate it .
and i can't wait to leave bowen . promise i wouldn't step into
it after i graduated . not even my favourite teacher die in school .
i'm not gonna step into BOWEN another step . that's it .
i hate BOWEN secondary school to the core and it is definitely a lj school .
ok ,, enough of my ranting . but after ranting ,, i feel
so much better . woo ~

PHOTOS PHOTOS of the past . (:

that was the cake for our valentine . and he was cutting it while i was waiting for it impatiently .

my cousin's dog . ain't she cute ?

my bdae present with editing .

that's w/o editing .

they are brothers la deh

How To Stand Strong .

and oh ,, he used to be such a wonderful bf for

the past few month . only until 03032007

thanks leh .

for me ,, a wonderful bf wouldn't told me

he think he needs to think about this

r/ship just because of a small matter .

anyway ,, i've already told him ,, that was the

last chance i'm giving him that time .

i seriously dun wan a r/ship that is sooooo

UNSTABLE .

that's how i feel now ? lol .


i wanna find someone who could always hold me and walk through ups and downs w/o leaving me .