i decided on it once i knew it .

ok ,, that's my one and

only choice . i have no choice

at all .

at first i thought it wouldn't

affect me at all and i can't

wait to destroy it .

but now ,, as the time drew

nearer ,, i'm getting afraid .

afraid of the pain .

afraid i'll miss .

sigh . ppl normally regret after

they've lost sth . now

i know i'm gonna lose it sooner

or later but i can't

cherish it . sigh ~

as time goes by ,,

his face slowly disappearing

from my mind . his name ,,

his call and his text msgs

slowly disappear too .

i'm slowly starting to get used to

it . even if i'm not used to it ,,

wad can i do ?

so ,, i made myself to get used

to it . slowly ,,

i'll forget his smell and his

everything . and by

the time it come ,, i guess

its time to get a new one . (:

just got home from work .

so tired . dun feel like

going out . baby think

wants to slack at tpy .

grace with bf .

kelly with bf too ba .

anyway ,, i'm not feeling

very well also la .

hmmm ,,

i dunno wad's gotten onto

me but i feel like

i dun have any close frens

anymore .

i just dun want and i

dun feel like to associate with

ppl . oh god ! i'm turning

anti-social . even to my

very best fren !

cure me cure me !

hope everything goes smoothly

for me on monday .

i and i hope that he'll

find someone he love soon

so i can give myself

a stronger reason it's

time to give up.

and i promise i won't

do anything to break

them up again .

i'll STOP contacting him .

aiya ,, i now also never

contact him liao

so just go ahead only lorr .

ok ,, turning emo soon .

better stop it . off to sleep . (:

am supposed to work today .

but uncle say there's no banana

to sell . LOL . that's why no work

so my money fly fly again . haha .

that's why i'm here to update .

nvr go out because my stomach

is feeling bloated today .

so not feeling very well

and no place to go la .

sians...

hmmm ,, had my chinese oral

exams today .

but i dunno wad it is for .

o level prelim ? or mid-year ?

oh ,, i dun give a damn .

nowadays de spammers .

tsk tsk tsk .

my god la .

ah lian ? define that for

me first please .

have not been hearing

this word for long that's

why i dunno wad it

means la . paiseh uh .

and prostitute ? define also

leh . i really dun understand

why by looking ah lian

got link to prostitute leh .

i thought prostitute are those

that are being fcuk by

alot of ppl ? he/she says

he/she's confused whether

i'm single or attached

but dun u think she's making

us more blur by making

ah lian and prostitute to

link . LMAO .

ok ,, stopped about those

no brains and no names de

spammers le la .

i only entertain spammers

who put down names .

be it real or fake name . LOL .

about BGR ,, i guess

i dun wanna step into

a new one . it's very tiring

u know . imagine u have to

get used calling others "dear"

or wadever . and imagine

u got to get used to other guy

getting close to u ,,

meeting everyday ,,

sending text msgs

and talking on the phone .

i guess maybe i've said all

this because i dun have anyone at

heart now . but i hope everything

takes times la .

not alot ppl knows about

our break-ups unless those

who read my blog frequently and

ppl close to me . and i found

it ridiculous as this break-up

was due to my fault [for his case]

and i didn't even use a single

phone number on the list .

[i guess only ppl knows about

the reason for our break-ups

knows wad i'm talking . LOL .]

hmmm ,, guess that's about

all .

---off to watch dvd or study . :D---

omg. have been decades since i last update. LOL.
lazy la. hmmm,, dunno why i've given all my dear
frens the idea of pregnant? LOL,, no worries.
i'm not. (= and me and him broke up again.
due to some reasons too. i dun wanna sae. bleah ~
am loading photos now so that i can update.
oh great. didn't know that photobucket can
upload so many photos at one time now. (:


feel like going out later but i'm like no place to
go ,, no one to meet . LOL . great,, i'll use this time
to do some revision for my coming mid-year exams !
dunno whether wan go alone for revision anot . so
that i can focus. but scared later boring leh. later cannot
focus then alone more worst. BOO~


sigh ~ dunno wad to do. guess that's just part of life.
ok la. i'm bored ! =S
i guess i'll be closing down my blog soon .
i'm just so lazy to on the computer to
sit down there to update what's been going
on and to upload photos. zzz . anyway,,
it's gonna be the same routine.


i can see that i keep changing my profile and
i'm really sick and tired of it la. I DUN WANNA
GO ROUND AND ROUND IN THE SAME CIRCLE.
although i know it's kinda diff. to give up a 3 years
relationship . and maybe a little love is there but
i think i'm more used to him by my side la.
now that he's not by my side ,, i do feel lost at times.
sigh ~ wad to do. it's not the first time anyway.
but i admit i'm at the wrong now but sae really one,,
who knows when he'll break with me again . right ?


that's just the selfish thought of mine. but wad to do?
that's just me. he gotta love me for who i am.
oh,, i just love the weather today. raining. GREAT .
better than the hot sun shining at me . yucks~
i'm sorry for the bikers ah. haha .
guess i'm getting a little naggy. and here comes the photos !














those were the times.



kah ling, xue ning and me taken quite long ago.



kor kor and me. (:



graceY and me .



these were the evidence of running away from PE. heh.



this is a ah toot i saw on the way to school one morning . =x



the lady on the left has a very weird feature. too bad it isn't that clear. scary la.



XIAOGUI ~







this is how boring our english lesson can get.











snapshot of her while she's smoking. she did that to me first !



dun she look so pro cleaning the glass?



ok ! that's all about that. =D

ok ,, i'm back with him !!!
due to sth which i can't
really say . hmmm ..
alright . everything was
fine for now . but for
a few weeks later ,,
i dun really know .
sigh ~ but i do hope that
this would go on forever la .
i know saying forever
sounds stupid or childish or
lame but i dunno wad to
sae la . haha .


alright ,, grace sister is
starting school already !
and i can see she dun
really like that school .
she is so racist la . then
ask her be with so many
malays . LOL . but
anyway ,, i hope that
that school would make
her become not racist
and i do hope that
everything goes well
for her . (:


i'm feeling so sick lately .
giddy . giddy . giddy .
and i dun really like that
feeling . my sweet sweet
boyfren am going to
bring me to see doctor .


about the job of kelly's .
yes ,, we still went in the
end due to lack of cash .
it was sth like a fine
dining dinner ? but cause
we dun have any experience ,,
we went there wiping those
wine glasses . we were late .
cause i need to make my ez
link card as it was lost and
kelly went to buy her black
pants and altered it .
photos of our cute uniform
would be uploaded soon .
when i'm free . heh .


but i was sick on saturday so
i never go . BOO ~ there goes
my money ~ ok ,, i'm gonna rest
awhile more and then to the
doctor . so afraid of wad the
doctor might sae . update soon !

was tired in school the whole day today . yawns ...
took napfa test . all also not bad except for my
standing board jump . argh !


then here i am waiting for kelly's call to go
work . it's at fullerton dunno wad
waterboathouse de la . but she haven't call
guess not going le ba . sigh ~ no more money
again . sadded ~ but it's ok la . cause i'm tired too .
heh . i'm sooo short of cash now la . BOO ~



dunno wad to type liao . i'm very tired now
and my mind is empty . guess i'm getting a
nap soon . =) update soon .

slacking in school the whole day .
slept almost the whole day la .
zzz . except for a-maths . dots .
dunno why just feel so tired .


my mum is pregnant and i wonder
was that a good thing or a bad one ?
i'm just so used to being the youngest
and suddenly i'm going to have a
younger sibling in dec . oh my ...
and when the time i turn 18 ,, he/she's
only two months old . my god ! and my sis's
is already 21 ! how old . guess we can
be the parents of the baby instead of siblings .
lol .



guess that's all i wanna sae ba .
phew ~ so tired about school .
later still going to work . but ...
i'm gonna meet graceY first .
(:

sorry frens for not updating . haha .
nth much though . been rotting at home ,,
slacking at school or working lorr .
but i've been independent recently la .
i'm so proud of myself . i can go
town and shop alone . lol . somehow ,,
it's kinda fun too la . i still have my cig to
accompany me . lol .

this break-up with him was sooo
weird . i dunno how to describe but
it was just weird . usually ,, i would
be msg-ing a number of guys and
meeting up with them . but this
time ,, i didn't . although ,, i did reply
when they msg me la . but i just dun have
the mood to go out with them leh .
sigh ~ dunno why also . friday is my
sis b'dae . and he's being invited .
oh gosh . gonna meet him . dunno
why feel kinda anxious . =x

hey frens ,, i found a new way killing
boredom at home ! it is ...
buy dvd and watch . those lian xi ju
that kind . lol . am watching "it started
with a kiss" . erm ,, NICE . haha .

didn't went to school . actually wanted to
sleep longer . then the stupid uncle ask
me go work early . no ppl help . zzz
so ,, no choice . i got to wake up now .
so here i am . blogging . LOL .

ok ,, update till here . i still got to
finish writing those letters . got
to pass to him tml le . =S