bored . tiired ...

hmmm ,, just reachh home from goreng piisang . wahaha ~ hmmm ,, just now smoke at home kena caught by my brother . SHIT SHIT SHIT . but he also scold scold only la . hmmm ,, siians . later going town now .

hmmm ,, ii'm tiired and ii'm laxy tuhh blog . update euu all next tym kks . LOL . take care .

lalala*

today didn't go skool cause baby din want go . then ii thought nobody with her . so pon lorr . hmmm ,, then HE suddenly use baby fone tuhh call me . so pon together lorr . hmmm ,, then meet them at p0tong pasir mac with baby and lulu . then went tuhh bishan . baby buy sth . . . wahaha ! but nth lehhs . abit giddy ,, blur only . hmmm . aizai . LOL . then slack at there all the way le . siians la. wahaha ~

hmmm,, ii finally realiise that tuhh stop thinking of s0meone ,, if euu really want tuhh f0rget someone ,, tuhh put hiim down , it's tuhh talk tuhh him less . and liike grace ,, cut d0wn c0nversatiions . so ii dun thiink ii w0uld want tuhh bl0g so many thiings saying about him le la . hmmm ,, siians . !

they chu spot again . there ,, ii know de . one sae tml then sae. the other sae sat go see with his gf . kaoz ! sad lorr . but nvm . is ok la . wahaha ~

dun meet dun meet lorr . lidat better . meet when there's a need . wahaha ~ siians . b0red la . g0ing tuhh bugiis walk walk wiith grace and baby later lorr . buy my dress . wahaha ~ if still c0uldn't fiind one that ii like then i'm going tuhh buy shorts and skirts lorr . ahha ~ weets .

sexy babe .

PERSEVERE

PERSEVERE

PERSEVERE

PERSEVERE

PERSEVERE

hmmm ,, YAY !!

it's kiinda bored now . later goiing tpy sell banana . wahaha ~ money money . yay ! more and more money . haas . hmmm ,, can't waiit till Friday euu know . so many events going tuhh happen . hmmm ,, morning go sell banana then go home change ,, meet LULU ,, HIM and BABY to take neopriint and watch moviie . then go wonderland find ALice liiao . wahaha! excited,,

hmmm ,, so school reopen is a good thing fer me . ii dun think so much le maybe because ii dun have the time tuhh thiink and ii PERSEVERE not to contact him and ii did it . must wait to friday then can cor . cause meeting ma . hmmm ,, so . after that ,, must PERSEVERE again . maybe one week meet once or what lorr . liidat better . then ii can put down le. wahaha !

wriite till here ba . also nothiing to tork about now . take care my GALFRENS ~

hmmm ,, ii'm bored .

hmmm ,, my farking mother mood swiing siia . last nite use internet scold scold scold . my brother torking on the phone she also scold scold scold . haiis . ii go outside put thiings inside my school bag she also scold . haiiyo . dunno how to sae her sia . then this morning only cannot hear the alarm clock only she pinch me lehhs . so PAIN lorr . feel like SLAPPING her lorr sometimes . but i LOVE her too much la . she's simply such a GOOD MOTHER . omg . make me wanna puke .

hmmm ,, sians . today at school dunno why so tired then after recess is chemistry then mother tongue then sleep all the way . wahaha ! luckily never drool . paiseh paiseh . ahha ~ then around two plus going three lidat when ii was haviing afternoon lesson ,, HE called me . wahaha ! then ii didn't know fer what cause ii couldn't piick up and then was so excited la . wahaha! after school le then call him back then lidat lorr . tork so normal la . haiis . sians . thought what sia . wahaha !

hmmm ,, then now currently chatting with him on msn . so happy . NO WORDS CAN EVER DESCRIBE . SEE THIS !? ahha ~ hmmm ,, sians la . i wanna shout and scream tuhh the whole world ii love him and ii miss him . no one can ever replace him . LISTEN TO THIS KKS . so guys please stop pestering me . ii've had enough of all those nonsense . wad ii wan now iis him and only him . i promiise .

ii'm missing him . d0es he kn0w ?

so happy ,, bought my boots but feel so slut and bitch . haiis .. and cheap too . ): been t0 yuru's blog . sae defeng tagged . hmmm ,, wondering whether he will ever c0me viiew miine ? she's s0 different fr0m me . she's s0 f0rtunate . haiis . hmmm ,, b0ught the b00ts cause ii w0n money from soccer . but the guy say he pay fer me 50 so am happy . haiis . but on the way home ,, he ask me lie so lie lorr . but feeling so cheap . but ii dun dare reject . haiis . he made me have the feeling of being l0ved . like the past defeng ii kn0w . s0 caring and sweet . but ii kn0w he will only be a substitute of him and only fer a m0ment .. when ii wake up ,, all dreams will be g0ne . haiis . ii dun wanna hurt 0ther party . haiis .

hmmm ,, haiis . am missing him so much . dun have the courage tuhh message him and cor him . ii ask lu thurs or when g0 take ne0print . wahaha~ BUDDY FER LIFE ! RETARDED THUMB BUDDY . sure make him take one thumbs up de . wahaha ~ dun di siao le . later he angry he dun want help me le . haiis .

have rejected all th0se ji0ing me le . cause ii feel iif my heart iis wiith hiim ,, n0body can ever replaced iit . ii only need hiim and that's enuff. ii'm sure fer now . hmmm ,, siians la . so damn happy . bought my boots . lalala ~ iif he's back wiith me ,, ii w0uld be more happy . but can't blame anyone else but me . haiiyo . haiis . haiis .. sians . dunno why suddenly feel so eager tuhh bl0g . wahaha ~ dunno lehhs .

ii din put password anymore because am waiiting fer someone tuhh view it and waiting fer the someone to tagged . no matter what that someone write ,, ii would be happy too . because ii wanna let him know how ii feel . thiis iis where ii would sae all these truthful words that ii wanna tell him but din have the courage tuhh tell him . haiis . ii miis him and love him . if ii could turn tym back or iff there's another chance ,, ii w0uld cherish him and will not ever d0 such silly thiings agaiin . ii keep doiing all those silly and childish things . haiis . STOP IT KAMMY !!! EUU NEED TUHH PUT A STOP TO IT !!! if not ,, euu wouldn't even be frens with him ii tell euu . euu gonna lose everything euu have now .

ALWAYS THE SILLY GER EUU KNOW ((:

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haiis .. wad tuhh sae . happy n0 m0re . tuday first day 0f school and it's damn b0red ok . haiis . so sad . message hiim tuday . haiis. ask hiim fer patch . he dun wan . *sobsob* kena rejected . siians . but nvm . all that ii wan and ii care is him . haiis . anyway ,, dun wanna keep saying bout it . ii know when tyms comes ,, he will come back . ii promiise ii will wait . hmmm ,, siingle siimply rawks my liife . but wiith him by my siide would be better of c0urse . (:

haiis . currently wanna message hiim but dun have the c0urage ,, scared he finds me irritatiing and like ii keep pesteriing hiim . listening tuhh every song that has our memoriies . SHAN HU HAI . weets ~ haas . haiis. anyway ,, ii shouldn't brood over it . hmmm ,, just let nature take its course . sometimes , ii wiish ii was like Yuru . haiis . she can persevere well . not to message him . but she got message him anot ii also dunno la . haas . and can dun meet him although she miss him so much and wanted to see him so much . wonder how she did it ? haiis . PERSEVERE . euu can do it KAMMY !

haiis . today going aljunied then after that going TOWN . wahaha ~ shop fer my boots . happy like fark . win money ma . bet on soccer . wahaha ~ can euu imagine ? am l0ving it . but ii'm sure won't get addicted . n0 w0rries ya ? *thumbs up* hmmm ,, LU iis my BUDDY . yay ! retarded thumb . wahaha ! sians la .

LU ,, if euu happen tuhh read my bl0g ,, next tym got pon ,, must jio kks .

feel like goiing to w0derland tuhh fiind alice . LOLS ! think only baby ,, sab and nat knows what ii'm torking about . wahaha ~ dun sc0ld me . i'm just curious ok ! but ii know iif ii go find ,, he will hate me more . doing more and more stupid things .

things ii wanna do ...

``put new tattoo . to cover up of course . (:

`` buy slippers ,, heels .

`` buy clothes

`` to work and work and work so as to shop to shop to shop and of course to forget forget forget him.

`` to stop doing all those silly stuff tuhh let him hate me more .

`` dun ask fer much . remain the way things are now .

so much so much tuhh do now . most of all ,, i'm gonna bathe now , wahaha ~ going aljunied la . bye everyone !

AM II REALLY HAPPY ? HOPE SO .

hmmm ,, yesterday went tuhh meet someone then he treated me swensen and all then went tuhh cine tuhh meet my silly dancer . my apology tuhh her tuhh let herr waiit so long .

and ii saw grace . LONG TYM NO SEE HUH ! LOL . hmmm ,, then they went rush cause huiling bdae . sorry uh ~ ii din went because waiit fer thiis and dat then no tym le . haiis .

then ii went tuhh cuppage with the someone ii meet and ii heard news that DEFENG was beaten up . so worried . OMG . dun let me see them . ii'm sure i'll whack them up ! malayu BARBIE . knn . hate malays lorr . nbcb . beat my beloved . hmmm ,, then saw them at cuppage . they came .then the someone ii meet went off le and we slack there all the way .

hmmm ,, after cuppage ,, we went tuhh fat mama eat . he didn't tork tuhh me all the way . because he was so damn angry of me . ii was giiving hiim attitude again . but ii was also angry ma . sae until like dun wan meet me lidat then ii keep si chan lan da . so sad de lehhs . haiis ,,

just couldn't control myself . slap slap . haiis . then after fat mama ,, we went tuhh seven eleven bus stop there . then we slack and tork . suddenly feel like drinking so ii ask SAB help me buy e33 . haiis . train lorr . then feeling troubled ma . hmmm ,, then drink abit high le ,, broke the glass and start tuhh cut myself . *shiiok* sia . LOLS . psycho . then they keep scolding . then HE seems tuhh be more angry with me . but he bought me plaster and water tuhh wash . so touched . but ii just act like nothing la .

hmmm,, then after seven eleven ,, they wanted tuhh go home le . they plan tuhh take cab so ii wanted tuhh take train . so ii walk towards ps . after walking ,, dun feel like going home so went back find them but they already went off le then ii use a stranger fone tuhh call them cause hp no batt . then ii walked towards cine lorr . then saw him and ah boy together ,, but kay siao like dunno them then keep walking . then they follow lorr . then they ask me wan go long john ma . but dun feel like lehhs . later weird weird de . he so angry with me . then they walk off le . then ii was thinking ii got nowhere tuh go le lehhs . then go fiind them lorr .

after long john ,, they going back home then ii again dun want go with them . cause he at long john already all the way dun wanna tork tuhh me le . then they just went off lidat . then ii suddenly feel like seeing him ,, tuhh hug him tiight . haiis . then went tuhh his house lorr . siians .then he made me laugh . so happy .. sometimes feel so happy with him but sometimes feel like slapping him lorr. paikia paikia . wa lau eh . hmmm ,, then he tell me how the MALAYU BARBIE beat him ,, feel so heart pain so help him rub lorr . then sleep all the way till evening went home le . hees . happy . hmmm ,, that's all ba.

oh my goodness ,, going school reopen le . feel so shag sia . haiis . hmmm ,, dun feel like . sians de lorr . hmmm ,, then dun thiink ii wanna go out so often after school reopen le . think only going out on thurs ,, fri and sat . so gers ,, if euu all wanna meet me ,, must book a week before kks . if not will be fully book le . cause ii monday, tues, after school going help tutor then after that go home lorr. then wednesday going gorenf pisang . ahha ~ sunday is because monday got school . wahaha ~ siians la . school .

write till here ba . missing so much ppl . all running inside my head . ain't euu gers and HIM tired ? wahaha ~ love euu gers ! euu gers siimply rawks my life !

BOREDOM

currently ish at baby house with defeng and lulu . bored la . miss even though he is here with me . lols. ~ lalala* sians la . that's all . haiis .

NO MORE

haiis . stupid de me go sae break . stupid stupid . ARGHHH . haas . no more le . haven't even one week yet ii like that . dunno what happen tuhh me also . haiis .

hmmm ,, haiis . dunno what tuhh sae . now dun wanna fall in love again .

now who currently jioing me ?

let me tell euu all ba . haas

`aaron

`wee wee

`bastard(darius)

`xiaohei

`esmond

think should be no more le ba . sians . think wee have the higher chance . ((:

ahha , but better is dun get into a relationship la . LOVE SUCKS . and ii know. ii dun wanna get hurt another time . i'm sick and tired of this shit . i'm feeling so shit . LOLS .

TESTING TESTING . ARGHHHH !

currently is on testing with him now . although a little bit reluctant . hmmm ,,

actually alot of things wanna blog but i'm lazy lols .

will update euu all more when 22nd june come ok . that's when we will tell each other our decision . lols . it's a PROMISE . lols.

I DUNNO WAD I WANT

defeng used lewis fone and message me and ask me tuhh try one week . he said he dun wan tuhh be like the past . if not happy together then dun be together . haiis . but i rejected . euu may say i'm stupid . but what is that ? ONE WEEK ? dun make my toes laugh la . sometyms think again ,, dunno whether ii really want to be with him anot . isn't now very good ? i ken be with him ,, and i ken go flirt around too . i want meet who jiu meet who . i dun wanna lose my frens and tyms that i'm working without him in my life . euu all may say i'm stupid . patch back with him also can meet frens and work wad . but of course i wanna spend more tyms with him . which make me meet my frens less often . and as for work ? i can't work in a pub like i used to . which means i have less income . haiis . dunno wad ii want also . feel like slapping myself sometyms . then when i told him ii dun wan wad one week or wad de he didn't reply le . haiis . think he sleep le ba . then until now i haven't cor him . haiis . everytime also i cor him meet him de . he claim that he still love me but he dun take the initiative tuhh meet me all . this call love ? hur ~ wad a joke .
















haiis . enough about HIM . i'm tired of his guessing game . actually i just intend tuhh make this blog very long . like wad grace sae . the slides are blocking my tag board . lols. but am a bit lazy euu knoe . i'm a lazy girl . lols . sians . later going work again . no money uh . after this week ,, i'm gonna quit boat quay there le . which means more tym tuhh go out . *yeah* hmmm ,, but no money is one problem la . after i take my pub de pay ,, i'm going tuh put a new tattoo to cover up mine and to but boots . *thumbs up* haas . there goes my money . lols . haas .












this week dunno when i'm going to east coast with defeng de family . dunno he will go along anot . he sae yes yes yes but he everytime last minute chu spot de . lols . hmmm ,, haiis . miss him dunno why , stupid stupid me . hope tuhh be like grace . stop contacting him . ren ren ren. haas . i really wanna lead the happy life of me . haiis .. why can't i be happy like others ? like jammy ,, so sweet . haiis . i know they may sae we didn't see the part when they quarrel . but at least they still bother tuhh quarrel . haiis . i want him back but when he sae what one week or wad ,, it really breaks my heart . <3

HAPPY ((:

hmm ... todae went tuhh meet defeng de sister ... went tuhh far east . eat and shop . bought clips and earrings . haas ,, happy .

after that bought things for him tuhh eat then he ate lorr .. then watch vcd toogether . happy la . understand how happy ii am ? ii am sure ii am going tuhh be happy again .

hey frens .. sorry . think i've left euu all out lately . busy with my work ... then if no work keep wanting tuhh meet HIM . haiis . really sorry but euu all really are still in my mind . and i love euu guys forver . this ii promise . i promise once i am free ,, i'll cor euu guys again . maybe after i put down all my work load . muackks . <3

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LAZY LAZY

feeling lazy tuhh blog lately . but kelly always want me tuhh post . haiis . sians .

later going work lorr . recently contact back with my primary school fren Christina . later meeting her so currently i'm at home waiting fer her arrival . hmmm . slow la she . then later going tuhh help my mama de fren de nu er tuition . haas . then go boat quay . i'm gonna be rich . see !

haiis . guys ,, i didn't do wad ii said . i said not tuhh meet him but ii still meet him . but ii just couldn't control those farking hands tuhh message him when my fone have money la . haas . siaos . people got Yuru liao . see their frenster so en ai . kiss here kiss there . laopo laogong here and there . go and bother bout em' fer what sial . i should do what he sae . to BLESSED him . and he'll BLESSED me too . haiis. sians la .

write till here la. i want go take photo on my phone le . ahha . see euu guys .

GRACE ,, i've make my post colourful . smile =)

*thumbs up*

SICK AND TIRED OF MAII LIFE ...

haiis . went tuhh work yesterday ,, make a fool of myself again . got drunk . make spoil Kelly's shoe then broke a glass there ,, haiis . 'hao hao yi ge ren wei shen me gei wo nong dao zhe yang' ? haiis . sad larr .








meet defeng lorr ,, then he take care of me lorr . *happy* but it doesn't last long larr . because there's still things that we can't do . he has gf de worr . but i'm already satisfied . dun be greedy . haas . hmmm,, go cuppage . seh seh still can play dota lehhs . aiseh . weets . haas . hmmm . very xun ku yesterday lorr . head is like going tuhh burst lerr . first tym keep vomitting . then very tired . promise not tuhh drink that much again . SWEAR !!














haiis . although now still got abit de not feeling well but still need tuhh go work uh . haiis . no money bo bian and also dun dua ppl lorr . haiis ,, sadded . phone no money lorr !! ah ha . good chance not tuhh message him . *yeah* hmmm . write till here ba ,, gotta prepare fer work lerr .


















ALL MY LIFE IS TO WORK AND WORK AND WORK .. HAIIS -

- D E A D -

hmmm ,, here tuhh post again . sians . going work soon lerr . waiting fer Kelly . the princess ,, lols . hmmm . sians sians sians .














about defeng ? haiis . i think we just be frens better . realli . think when he want meet then meet lorr . if he dun wan ,, then forget it . dun have tuhh feel sad . anyway ,, like wad Pei pei sae, ii should thank him . thank him fer making me know what is love .








hmmm ,, think write until here ba . update euu guys again . living a fucked up life . haiis .