kammygkx

got to know this girl's blog through my sister.
http://berngrace.blogspot.com/
i was very touched and i feel that things that
she's gone through are exactly the things that
i'm going through right now.
it took her four years to really move on.
will i do the same thing too?
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if i really move on , will i stop talking about weihao?
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we became not fearing of death cause we know
we could see our loved ones if we die.
she still wears the ring that her boyf gave
like how i'm wearing it too
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she hated it when people asked how is she
doing and how're you just like how i do.
she'd teared when she smell familair scent of perfume ,
see similar faces , heard similar names , or been to
familiar places.
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is that all the things we do when we lost our loved ones?
is it all like that?
i like one of her saying.
we all hate the word moving on.
so instead of moving on , why not we say moving with?
do not think that i'm leaving him with my past.
but think that i'm drawing nearer and nearer to him
as i grow old.
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yes , one of her post was also about growing old.
i've had this thought too. what happens if one day
i grow old without him?
i only have memories of him being that 22 years old
handsome guy. but i don't ever know how
he looked like when he's old.
thinking of that , i really hate to grow old.
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will things ever be the same when we die?
if i ever happen to die , will i meet him still?
will he wait for me or has already reincarnate?
or will he be holding other people's hand by the
time i die?
what if i've found another true love later on?
what will i do if i die and sees the both of them?
so much thoughts pondering.
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i really miss those days in the street with you,
miss those days staying at home with you.
miss those days taking the long trip by train to your
house after my long day of school,
miss those days when we sleep the whole night
and realise we just spent our weekend sleeping.
miss those holiday trip you'd be so eager to bring
me.
there's many many more things that i miss.
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it's only the 78th days i'm without you and here i'm ranting so much about it. people has gone through 700+++ days. she's so much stronger than me. i really really miss you soh weihao. tell me a way where i can not cry. teach me a way where i can not miss.