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You wan know who am I ah ?

Ya, who are you. Lol.

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Hello people , here I am for a short post before I go missing to hardcore tumblr-ing again. Anyway, I went to ttsh to have a follow up from the doctor just now. It's not too bad still, but I'm a little traumatised from the equipment I has from my leg now. :( Know why?

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Cause the dr actually help to adjust abit just now. It's funny and awkward and weird to see both drs screwing the equipment just now. It's like.... I don't know how to explain in words lah, but it's just weird.

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And you know, when they tried to adjust the metal thing, at first I still can relac relac sit there and smiling to myself about how awkward the situation is. But I tell you...... I suddenly felt a twist near my ankle there and then that's where the feeling of tightness and pain came. D:

Ohmigawd ~ Lol. There's where the pain came, & I stopped laughing and smiling to myself cause it isn't funny anymore. :(

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Anyway, I would like to say that I'm really fortunate and happy that I've got such a good dr. He's really a very experience dr. Like for example, he will know how exactly I felt and knew exactly where is the spot that's most pain and so on and so forth. & the best thing about him is that he's too cute. Lol.

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Why did I said that he's too cute? Cause he seems more eager for me to get back on my feet than I was !!!! Why do I say so? Cause when I went in with wheelchair just now, he will says, "oh no oh no, not with the wheelchair anymore. I'm gonna ban you from coming to see me with wheelchair the next time."

So, tell me now, don't you all find him cute too? Ban me from seeing him with wheelchair. Funny lah ~ Hahahahahahahahaha.

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Oh ya, & he told me not to go to polyclinic anymore to wash my pin sites. He said he don't really like the idea of going to the polyclinic. Have to wait, & it's not really clean and waste of money. :x woah, would any doctor says that to you? & that's where he's special about. He says I'm ready to clean the sites myself with alcohol swabs and ready to bathe together with the metal thingy and leave it exposed already ! (Y)

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& I'm going for another minor op tomorrow. Don't have to wish me gdluck anymore people cause I guess it's just some never ending procedures and all the wishes doesn't really work cause if it really brings me gdluck, I won't be going for so many ops already. Hahahahaha. So mean right the way I says, people is just trying to be good. But hey, I'm just being realistic lah. :x

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But don't worry people, I'll be back home after the op. :) I guess it'd be painful after I woke up, cause they gonna lengthen my tendon muscle. Sounds scary? Don't really sounds scary to me. But when I imagine bout it, it seems scary to me. Definitely gonna be a few more scars on my right leg. -.- Okay, whatever.

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Oh & one last thing ! I saw a mini van with the car plate of GW3100X just now, while I was on the way to ttsh !!!!! OMG, yes, I'm excited. I know I'm abit sick. But I've been looking out for that car plate number everytime when I'm out. It's been 6 months already & now I finally sees it. I even thought that I would never get to sees it anymore. Just when I was about to give up hope, I saw !!!! :D

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Ya, I'm tmd damn excited. Cause when I saw that car plate number, the memories of me teasing Weihao about his "3-1-o-o X ahhhh ~" thingy flashback to me. :D So happy. :)

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Okay lah, I think I should stop going on and on already. Going to have my dinner now and then hardcore tumblr-ing again. Haha.

P/s : I'm really really happy I saw 3100X. Thanks to whoever that person is. It just make me feels that Weihao is telling me he's always around, no matter how long he's gone. ILY, SWH. :)

FML, seriously. :(

Yes, people. I'm here with my sucky face. Hahahahahaha.

i thought about quite abit last night before I get to bed and sleep.

But first, let's enjoy some sucky face of mine before I rant more

bout my thoughts. Sigh ~

This pic above looks more like me in real life lah. Fat, kiddish, whatever.

The rest of the pics are more of dark and blurry that's why pretty.

This one is better. Hahahahahaha.

One day my gf, gracey came over to my place with her hair in nice curl

& she told me she went over to see xiaxue's blog and try it out.

It really works and so I tried too....

But maybe my hair's too short and maybe too many layered

or maybe I used a rubber band instead of scrumbies.

I didn't get what I wanted in the end. Hahahahahahaha.

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Okay now, time for my thoughts?

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Okay, this is just some of the shit stuffs I pondered about last night.

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The two most important guys in my life including myself is up on the

newspaper. -.-

Okay, this is nothing to brag about and be so proud of it. Because it's

not something so good to be proud of.

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Seriously , I would rather we'd all be living in our own world

now rather than be in the newspaper and let people in forum

talk shits bout us when they-know-nothing-at-all.

WTF WTF WTF WTF.

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Yes, I seriously think I'm a jinx. Know why? I will tell you people why

later in the posts. I know you people will definitely comfort me with good

words like, "oh come on, don't be so silly." or rather, "why think like that? you're not !"

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But okay okay, let's put aside those good comforting words and really

really imagining you, yourself in my shoe.

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Would you not have the thought that you're a jinx when the two most

important guys you had in your life left you?

& what's ironical is that before they both left and stay un-contact-able

I was the one they were with. -.-

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& the worst thing was .......

It was both their birthday !!!! :(

One was days before his 22nd birtday.

& the other was on the 20th birthday itself.

Tell me, would you not find yourself a jinx cursing others

if you were me?!

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& you know, after thinking bout it, I started to thought, why was I

not the one who's leaving since the three of us is in the newspaper !

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& then, suddenly these silly thoughts came to my mind.....

Okay , it really is silly but you know, life is so unpredictable

& things always happen unexpectedly when you seems to be

enjoying life out there.

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Anyway, I thought that maybe it's because my time is not up yet.

Cause you know since both happen was near to their birthday.

So , I thought....

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Maybe something would happen to me on my 21st birthday?

Maybe before? Maybe on that day itself? Maybe after?

Cause......

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1. Weihao is before his 22nd brithday.

2. Defeng is on his 20th birthday itself.

Therefore, my conclusion is, for me, I guess most probably

would be after my 21st birthday.

Sounds ironical?

before, itself and after.

22nd, 20th and 21st.

Hahahahahahahahhaha.

Okay, maybe I really think abit too much. -.-

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Ehhhh , not bad. At least still can celebrate my very big day before

I'm gone for good. :x

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& the things I thought about what might happen to me was.....

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-Maybe two months later, by the time I need to remove this Ilizarov

thingy and I died during my op? D:

-Okay, or maybe I might be able to walk already and one day when I'm walking

on the road, I kena bang by the car and got involved in a RTA again

& die.

-OR MAYBE, two months later, the doctor tells me the Ilizarov couldn't help me get

back to walk and get back on my feet again then I depression & jump down, commit

suicide & die. -.-

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Whatever it may be, I hope to die without the Ilizarov and I hope

I would die an instant death. As in, if really is die in a RTA, please

bang me and let me fly far far away and hit my head and instant die

can. I wanna learn to fly before I die.

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Yaaaa ~ Like I can get to choose like that. -.-

& things always don't turn out the way I wanted it to be.

Most probably, I'll kena bang and then go hospital,

waste another few days and then die. Then, waste my mummy's

money AGAIN. :(

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Yes, so please please please. If want, jiu let me die without

spending more of their money. Maybe money on my funeral all

theses cannot be help lah. But please don't waste money trying

to help me revive and in the end..... zzzzzz.

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Therefore, I think I should take more pictures and record more

of my beautiful voice singing & create as many websites

as I can and write down many many things as I can

so that the next time

if something really suay suay *touch wood*

happen, people still can reminisce me in so many ways. :D

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Anyway, that's just all bout my thoughts lah.

I just feel I'm a jinx myself.

& if really nothing happens to me on my big birthday

& I gets to live to the age of 60 yrs old,

I swear I'm not gonna let any more guys become important

in my life anymore.

PLEASE.

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& I wonder, why are all the bad things happening to me

& when will the good things starts to come?

2010 really sucks to the core.

I hope 2011 would be better and not sucks more than anything else !

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I don't want to lose anymore important people. :(

That feeling sucked, ttm.

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Okay, that's about all for my what-it-may-seems-to-be

my silly thoughts. :D

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Bye people and off I go now to hardcore tumblr-ing !

Hahahahahahhahahha.

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pssss ~ you know what?

I found out that xinmsn not only can catchup channel

8 shows only. Also can catchup channel 5. I'm so gonna go

catch "the two of us" already .

BYE !!!!! :)

lol, girl that guy together with df was my ex boyfriend(stilwell) O:

D: Xiao x ah? It's a small world after all, it's a small world after all, it's a small world after all, it's a small, small world ~~~~ Hahahahahahaha.

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what happen to pdf?

D: don't wanna talk bout it online, it seems not to be so safe here. Why don't you read the news or google searchy bout it? Not sure whether it could be google-d but definitely it's in the newspaper. :(

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Hey peeps, I'm busy tumblr-ing so that I can share all the good and sweet stuffs with everyone else. Please do go over http://kammygkx.tumblr.com/ and kay-po if you people want. :) I promise & assure & swear it's good stuffs ! Hurhurhurhur ~ Will be over there for the time being and will be back some time later ! :D

What music are you listening to today?

I'm thinking bout that for the time being. Hahahahaha.

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What was the best advice you've ever received?

Stay strong, you can do it.

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If you had your own talk show, who would your first three guests be?

Grace, Yifeng & Belle/Kelly

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What's the furthest you've ever traveled?

Taipei I guess. You? Lol !

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just relax yourself for the time being bah, try not to think so much, guess it'll help in the recovery stage. dun think so much just let nature takes it's own course bah. all the best in your life. stay strong. =)

Yep , that's what I'm thinking too. Thanks to whoever you are. :)

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formspring.me

Anything That You Want To Know? http://formspring.me/kammygkx

Cannot find..............

Why cannot? Just type my name and his name and it will appear already. D:

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Wad happen to the nice guy?

Go google search. D:

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We'll all pray for you.

Yes , this is the man whom I was with together for 4 years

before Weihao & I was together.

& he was the one who let me get to know Weihao.

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I found this photo long ago and I wanted to upload it in fb.

Before I remember to upload , things happen. :(

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He's gonna be away by my side for a period of time.

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I had one less people to talked to , one less people to cry to ,

one less people to make fun of , one less people to comfort me and tell

me lame jokes just to make me happy.

One less people to dabao for me when I need to. :(

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He's someone who made me believe in real friendship between

guys and girls.

I used to have the thought that how could a guy and girl be sooo close

with no feelings attached to each other?

As in......

How could I guy and a girl be close friends?

My mentality in the past was ,

a guy and a girl could only be close friends if

one of them had feeling towards each other.

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But....

He's the first one who made me think likewise.

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He's a very kind-hearted man. Used to & always is.

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As we've been together for about 4 years , I can say , I know

what kind of person he is.

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We were in the same primary school when we first met.

He told me he's already fallen for me.

I didn't pay much attention to him at that time cause

YES , I'M REALISTIC , I GO FOR LOOKS

& he used to be not so good-looking in the past.

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So , after we graduated from primary school , I went out with

him and his friends cause one of his friend likes me & wants me

to be his gf. I didn't want to.

But he and another friend keep asking me to & so I did.

I'm someone who can be brainwashed easily & I seriously

hate that fact of it.

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Anyway , I was only together with his friend for a few days/weeks

cannot remember. EH HELLO , IT'S FREAKING 7 YEARS AGO OKAY !

Hahahahahhahaha.

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So , I hang out with my own group of Tpy friends afterwards and we

never keep in contact.

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So there was once I remember , he saw me at Tpy entertainment.

& just nice , I saw that one of his friend was kinda good-looking.

& I called another of his friend to check it out

& this is how we got into contact with each other back.

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He invited me over to his friend's chalet and we hang out more.

We would have late night calls tgt with one of his friend too.

P/s : I didn't have the chance to know the good-looking guy in the end.

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Anyway , at that period of time , he has a gf already. I thought it was

okay for us to be friends. Cause it's just friends. BUT ....

who knows....

I suddenly has this strange feeling towards him after the chalet. D:

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& slowly , I made my feelings known to him & he left the girl for

me. :(

Yes , I felt bad & guilty for what we've done to that girl.

But can't blame when feeling comes , right? :(

Sigh ~

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So after they broke up , we were tgt.

AND YES , WE DID WENT THROUGH ALOT TGT FOR THESE 4 YEARS.

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I won't say what we've been through one by one cause that'd be like

as if he's gone forever & I'm talking about him like talking about weihao. -.-

Lols.

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I just want to say , he's a kind-hearted guy who wouldn't

do that kind of stuffs & I feel that he does not deserved what

he gets at all. :(

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Cause , after all the bad things I've done to him ,

he's still here for me when I needed friends with me in the end.

He's still here with me when I needed someone to talk to.

Here with me when I wanna talk about Weihao.

Here with me when I wanna cry and try all sorts of stuffs making me laugh.

Here with me when I've nobody to buy food for me late at night ,

or early in the morning.

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I hope god could see what you've got and would listen to all

of our prayers and bless you with it.

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You'll definitely be fine sosa. & no matter what the outcome

would be , you know , we'll definitely wait for you !

my god tt photo before op was really scary!! ><! Yr bone dislocated or sth?!!

My left feet was even scarier ! Boom ! Hahahahahaha. Hmmm , dr says it's contracture. Haven't been walking for too long thus it turns out like that. :(

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Brother's birthday , Sosa's birthday & Sweet , evil Ilizarov. D:

I'm back people !!! With lots of pictures ~ But before I show you pictures

of the Ilizarov to turn you people off , why not enjoy some of the joyful festives

pictures first? Lols.

My brother's birthday celebration at the Kbox where I have to climb the stairs

down the other day. How will I forget that day !!! Hahahahahaha.

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Sosa came over for a night for his birthday celebration.

Damn sweet hors. But he buy cake himself at first , so poor thing. :x

Lols.

Walau ~ I can't buy mahhhh ~

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So , he came over with two small cakes for myself and him only

cause nobody at my place knows it's his birthday. Then he keep calling

my house phone so my brother asked why he kept calling.

So I no choice , I said and he paiseh , go my house opposite with my mummy

to buy a bigger cake !

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But my mummy pays for the cake ! Hahahahahahahahahaha.

Anyway , my brother called Kenneth and asked him & Gracey to

come over to celebrate also. Machiam his birthday ah. :x

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And anyway , they came and we cut the cake ! :D

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY SOSA !

Finally hit 2 already ! Lols. Please be sensible from now on cause

all your actions must pay serious consequences now. Lols.

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Anyway , the cake cutting photos is in Gracey's digital cam. :)

Shall wait for her exams to be finished and after she blogged

about her Bkk trip and then I'll kope the pics from her. :D

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Here are some of the photos I took with him. Lols

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I wanted to take the metal thing but failed lehhh ~ :(

And my mouth abit out of shape on the second pic so put heart there ~

Lols. :p

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Tadahhh ~

I hold up my leg damn long okay ~ Lols.

& the big and long metal so scary ~ So big to be pierced inside to

my shin area. :(

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This is one of the photo I found before I went for the Ilizarov.

Yes , my right leg is already like that (out of shape)

before I went for the op. I never did that on purpose.

When I lift up my leg , the ankle is already like that. :(

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Another close up shot ! Lols.

Oh ya , The blue blue big colour metal is the one that pierced

through my skin and then to my flesh and then connected to

my bone I think. D:

& there's other few small metals that pierced through also. But I think

the small ones are straight away pierce through.

Like satay , got it? Lols.

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I tell you , the anasthaetic sucks for this op. :(

I don't know is they dislike me or what. But they poke alot of time and

finally settled down on my elbow there. :(

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At first it was my right hand , but bumped , thus failed.

Then they aimed my left hand , the wrist area. Succeed.

But when I woke up , it was at the elbow area there. :( :(

Think they really see me not happy.

& bruises ! Hope can see the bruises from the pictures ,

but in real life , it's worst ! D:

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My hospital pics next ~~~~~

*roll drum*

Hahahahahahahahaha.

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Sexaye ? Lols !

*slaps myself*

I tell you , I super looked like my mummy in this picture.

It's just like photocopy like that.

EXACTLY THE SAME ! -.-

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And fyi , I still can smile so happily is because I think the anasthaesia

not completely gone yet , so I not pain yet.

The next morning when I woke up............

Aiyo ~ pain die me I tell you. :(

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Bleeding bleeding ~ :(

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See my sexy left feet hiding at the coner of left side? Lols.

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My 21st birthday is just 2 months away ! D:

21st !!!!! But don't think will be celebrating anyway. :(

How to celebrate you tell me lah ! :(

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Sigh ~ but what's the point of having celebration when he's

not around? Meaningless , pointless. :(

Maybe just a mini home celebration with gfs and close friends though. :D

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Gracey suggested some wish list for me but I think it may be

abit pointless cause all damn expensive but it's true that's what

I needed the most right now ! Hahahahahahaha. (Y)

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Shall update my wishlist later on abit and see how it goes. :x

Don't know will have kind soul to buy for me or not. Heehee ~

Maybe can don't buy the present alone but everybody shares a little bit of

money and buy for me lah ~ :x

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Okay , that's about all.

You miss me , Don't Cha? :)

Hello everybody ! I'm back here to blog but no photos of my killer looks Ilizarov. Cause the photos is over at my phone but I'm over at my cousin's place therefore no cable to connect to the phone to upload it. So sad. Haha.





But I'll upload it soon don't worry k. You guys will get to see the modification of my leg soon. It's super scary and super inconvenient to walk around. Can't get to walk with that still. Super sad. :(






Am gonna remove the bandage and to clean the wound this saturday. Going over to Polyclinic to cleans it. I'm currently staying over at my cousin's place cause over at my place nobody is there to look after for me in the noon and they scared I won't wanna go to toilet cause of that or I might even fall to death and nobody knows. Lols.





Thanks to my uncle , aunty & cousins for looking after me for this period of time and sorry for the inconvenience caused. :x Like I said , I'm a burden to my family & my friends. With these metals on my leg , it's more of a burden. -.- Lols.





Anyway , I woke up at the hospital with no pain , no feeling , no nothing at all so I thought it wasn't as painful as I expected. Then , I went back to sleep after Alicia , Irfan , my family has gone back. The next day I woke up , I tell you..... Is tmd damn pain. :( I teared alot. :( Sheryl Bella came to visit me and it was so embarrassing. Hurhur ~





Anyway , the physiotherapist trying to help me to walk with it but I couldn't cause once I tried to put my legs on the floor , I felt a gush of blood flowing down to my legs and it was bleeding soon after that. -.-




It was painful. D: Ya , so cried lah then after that mummy came to fetch me home already. It's difficult , painful , hard to walk with the metal thingy. Just hopes that everything is gonna be over soon. D:




I hope to go back home soon. I miss my home. Hahahahahaha. :p

or needa redo a few more times before a beautiful curl is done? Cus I heard philips is not bad as well (:

Hmmm , I normally only curled it once. I'm a lazy bum ! :x hiakhiak ~

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Haha yes I know!! Her styler. Its about 199$. Sold at some pushcarts which sells straighteners. Its really awesome, ive tried before. But abit ex ah . . . What hair spray you use?? (: And the curls will be formed after you twist the tongs?

Ya ya , it's that curler. Hmmm , I'm not using any hair spray currently cause I'm only curling it at home. :x heehee ~

Yep , will be formed after twisting it but the spay will make it hold longer though. :)

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