HIS DECISION ...

he went back tuhh her . isn't this what i want ? why am ii still so sad ? still thinking about it ? why is he avoiding me ? couldn't we be frens ? does he still love me ? still care fer me ? as before ? i wanted tuhh ask him alorrt of questions . but when i meet him , see his face , all this questions disappeared into thin air . went to see his profile and her profile . haiis . so sweet . shall not disturb them anymore .




MY DECISION
``to put him down and not tuhh meet him anymore .

`` wait for another better guy tuhh appear . but if he's willing tuhh come back , i'll wait . but i'm not sure how long i'll wait . just before the good guy appear ba .

`` just concentrate on my studies ba .

``DO YOU ALL THINK I CAN DO IT ?






i'm falling and falling . dunno how long i ken hold on tuhh . i'm not strong anymore . i'm DEAD . i wish tuhh be like a butterfly . tuhh fly endlessly . to seek fer my dreams . take care my dear frens. i'm sick and tired of everything . MY LIFE [[FULLSTOP]]

I'M WILLING ...

thanks everybody fer tagging into my blog . although there's only grace , kelly and alicia . haas . missing euu guys .




df , i really willing tuhh back off . i dun wanna see euu so xin ku and confused . i wanna see the happy euu . if we are fren and we are more happy this way , why not ? and she's someone who won't kare bout euu . euu would have ur freedom . so why not ? if she's not willing tuh back off ,, let me be the one .alright ? do not bother about me . i'm sick and tired of everything . simply TIRED . how i wish euu could get out of my life . but euu never . euu kept running here and there . aren't ruu tired . i'm tired seeing euu ,. BACK OFF .










gonna work at boat quay soon . dunno will adapt not . cause go see lerr like all paikia lidat . sians de lorr . later fight fight fight de . haiis . so i tell dem say i try one week then after dat i run . lol .




hmmm . i can be happy . i wanna be happy . i dun wanna think so much lerr . i wanna lead my life like others . so normal and thinking of nothing .
















i'm a ATTITUDE girl . dun try to change me . because i am who ii sae ii am . nobody can change that . not even EUU !

SCARDED**

when ii just reach home today , my brother told me that she broke off with him . and she came tuhh view my blog . but how was that possible ? b'cuz she son't even have my password . that's why ii changed my password and when i went tuhh see their friendster , it was still very normal and my heart feel happy . if not i would feel guilty de . haiis . forget about it .


broke off with ANDY lerr . haiis . i'm sorry . but i'm really sorry . i'm not ready yet . euu are really good tuhh me. but i just couldn't . haiis . just tuhh sae sorry .



now rushing tuhh boat quay interview le then go meet grace , baby lerr . missing them badly . haas . update again next tym . gotta make my hair . haas .

shattered ...

just what the hell am ii thinking ? i'm with ma bf and there ii am thinking of euu . ken euu just stop running around ? aren't euu tired ? i see , i also tired . "xing da pei bei shang . zhiong shi zai wo xin jiao cha ." haiis . ii am feeling fortunate and miserable the same time . how ii wish we could go back tuhh the past .will euu ? i'm willing . no matter how hard it is . but ii know euu won't . why are euu still wearing my ring ? why did euu still put our photo ? i liked it but ii hated it too . haiis . i'm really messing up my life and others life . what should i do ?





missed daniel kor kor . when are euu coming back ? i need ur advise . so lost . so lost . happy that euu would still write tuhh us . sad that euu two weeks only got one letter . sad that i could not go and visit euu . i'm leading my life miserably . do euu know that . i'm waiting fer euu . but how long must i wait ? why am i always waiting ? i need your listening ear. are euu there ?





SNOWBELL...
stop saying that i disappoint euu. i'm tired . really tired. euu always find fault with others . think euu are so perfect . everybody do make mistakes . it's not that euu got no frens . euu are really a very good sister and frens but it's over now. i dun wish tuhh tork about and i've leave ur life . stop pestering me and i wun pester euu anymore . I"M OUT!





DEFENG ...
ken euu please stop giving me hope and push me into the hell again ? i hated this . are euu really happy with her ?! i'm not happy with him . i ... i got nth tuhh sae . but thanks fer making feel that euu still care fer me . i'm happy . i ... haiis . let's end here ba .

CONFUSED-

yesterday before i go meet my dear , i chatted with defeng on msn . hais . chatted alorrt . suddenly still feel that i missed him . haiis . i still can't forget him .

then after i meet my dear , he made me happy . i love him but i feel that my heart ish nort totally with him . i dunno y . and dunno what i'm thinking . messing up my life again . haiis . why is this happening tuhh me ?! i dun like it!!!!

today never go out the whole day . cause i promise my mama lerr . siians . but alrite larr. got com at home . hahas . finally waited till this day . write till here barr .

QUARRELL !!

haiis . yeasterday quarrel with my dear . cause ii dun want let him see maii fone then he angry . then he angry , i angry with him then together angry . lol .haiis .siians .

went out with him go cine but see many frens. then when ii meet jaslin and belle , snowbell nort happy . then siians . then dearr want go zouk but snowbell dun want . then snowbell say want go watch movie , dear say ok . then dear help snowbell pay . cause she no money . then dear pay her cab fare also . LOL .sometimes i feel she is his stead lorr . haiis . but ii know they very good la. until one day , i really kennort i dunno what i'll do . LOL.

life is full of miracles . but the miracle i long and hope fer , ish nort here yet .

that time at cine , somebody told me yuru keep looking at us on the top level . just wanna sae , ken euu please mind your own business and get the hell out of ma life ! i'm living happier now WITHOUT HIM !!

haiis . MESSED UP LIFE

everybody may say that im a strong girl but i am not. i dunno why when i see the two of euu together i will feel unease . have ii realli forgotten ? i'm nort sure .

everything i do now is a mess . dunno why i'm messing up my life like hell . hmmm. but i've already have a bf liiao . i know i shouldn't be selfish and tuhh cheriish the one ii have now which ii am trying my best .

ANDY--

i never regret being with euu . but if euu ever do ,, euu have tuhh tell me .i'm sorry of how i've treated euu tuhh make euu feel euu are nort important tuhh me as the phobiia of guys ish still there . but i truly love euu .

hao larsh . enuff of rubbish . i MUST be CHEERFUL no matter what happen becus ii know he will be by my side . gotta rush tuhh work now .

bye!

hi everybody ! i'm here .

hey everyone . i'm back . hope i've not let euu all waited long . maii comp have just arrived as there's some problems . lols .




hmmm . so what happened today ish very siimple . lols . i meet snowbell , grace and maii bf today and we went to bishan then tuhh orchard . bought a pouch fer maii mother and bought a belt ferr maiiself . lols. must save money liiaos . siians . then we went tuhh tpy and slack . then went home lols.


maii boyfriend ish apparently giving me money so i dun have tuhh work so hard . lols . feel so fortunate having him by maii siide . love hiim narh . hmmm . think that's all ferr today . going sleep lerr . lols .