pssst !

yo people ! i'm back here to blog ! Showing my sickening face. hurhurhur ~

Anyway, I'll try to make it short and sweet lah.

I'm starting to get back to work already.

Not to goreng pisang though cause that bastard uncle know

i cannot do a lot of thing compared to last time, so don't want me. T.T

okay, maybe is i too choosy cause i only wanna work with sbtf and wanting

but he don't want to let other people off.

Eh, very what loh ! I accident is I asked them to take over me

but i going back de leh. Knnzxzxc.

Ahhhh , whatever lah.

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Therefore, I'm working as a telemarketer now

cause i cannot work tough work like walking around or keep standing.

Okay, I sound so weak now, I seriously don't like it. :(

Anyway, no choice. T.T

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Okay lah, pay wise, not too bad and when i start school, i still can continue working. :D

cause it's only 3 hours per day and it's only 3 days per week. :)

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So, I'm fine with the job cause it's kinda cool just to sit there and talk on the phone.

the thing that i dislike about it is that i don't like to repeat things

over and over and over again. :(

but, no choice.

Because of money, I'll ENDURE.

*the power of money* -wink-

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Repeat things over and over and over again is another thing.

another awkward thing is that, we're actually calling at a kinda small

office and there were like 4-5 of us and 2-3 of us is there making calls

and the rest is like there using com, paperworks etc and they're actually

your manager. Fucking hell ~ it was soooo "paiseh" to like talk infront

of so many people man.

But, I just don't care. :x FOCUS, F O C U S !

Lol, act one focus only lah. kns.

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okay, should stop complaining since it's only the first day of my work.

anyway, I'm also back to work as a telechatter. Cool or what, stay at home

use phone got money, but whatever lah, still need to entertain them to dirty talk.

FML ! :(

Because of money AGAIN, no choice, just SUCK IT UP ! :(

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Okay, photos now ! :)

The above pic is just me hao-lian'ing (showing off)

my hair lah. Seen like kinda in trend this kind of hairstyle so I try at

home also, before going out. LOL.

But my hair too short, so no choice, people tie around the forehead there,

i tie around the top of my head, and act like it's hairband. -.-

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this was the day before i went for my interview. was preparing

and then realise i still got time, so camwhore a little. :)

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Ahhhh, these are all shots of today. Which is, just only ! :D

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Sorry for the bad quality lah, cause everyone is sleeping and i'm alone in

the living room so i didn't on my light to use my lappy to camwhore

so when i edit the pictures using picnik.com, i tried to edit

the brightness and contrast and it turned out like that. :x

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Anyway, I play cheat a little also. Cause i'm still wearing the lens my sister bought

for me from Thailand ! woohoo ~ she's the best lah. :D

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By the way, if one person passed away haven't one year, then "qing ming" never

go and "bai" want huh? Just curious ~

I wanna go to the place where my beloved boy's ash is placed.

But I don't think I'll be able to get that place's address. Hopefully next year

then TH might get the address from his brother then go pray tgt with them.

Ahhhhh, maybe i'll just make a trip to his tablet there someday.

Tablet, tablet? Correct right?

Ahhhh, anyway, I still owe him a bag of paper cranes. I'll just work harder

and when i get my pay, jitao cab there ! Muahahahahahahha,

yay-ness.

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okay, i'm off to removing my lens and then wash face and then sleep already.

Tomorrow wake up earlier to start the telechatter again which i only

manage to work one hour today . -.- sian leh ~

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bye bye people, i totally got no life. :(

boohoo ~

*just wanna complain*

CAN I GO BACK TO SCHOOL ON OCT INSTEAD!?

T.T

To move on or to stay at the same point?

i know when he just left, I told myself that I wanna continue

working at TTSH in future if I really wanna work as a nurse

because that's all the memories that we had among all hospital.

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we would go to ttsh whenever he's not feeling well. like , he's having

diarrhoea, or when he wanna have mc for work. Hahahahahahaha.

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I wanted to go back to goreng pisang and work when I'm going back to school

to study. I wanna continue to go back to Bishan and meet his friends whenever I can.

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Going to Bishan to meet his friends and slack is still okay.

cause we laugh, and joke around so there's never time for me alone

to think about him.

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I went back to goreng pisang to work just for a day and it caught me thinking,

whether I wanna move on or to stay at the same point.

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I went back to work ytd cause just nice sbtf's friend can't work and

I wanna work so badly that's why she helped me and I worked for a day.

Anyway, while working, got a timing where we would be quite free

so we were chatting away.

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I suddenly thought of those days when I was about to finish work and there

I would see his silly face waiting for me to finish work.

It was so heartwrenching, painful and difficult to fight back my tears.

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And I was thinking, do I really wanna make myself so painful by staying

at the same point and keeps get reminded of the things of him?

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As in, maybe I can move on?

Goes to another hospital and work?

Work elsewhere instead of pisang?

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But then again, I don't ever want to forget him.

I want to always remember him whether it's good or bad.

I need to grow up and face it.

I cannot start to avoid it.

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I know memories are good enough but it's still memories.

It still don't seems real.

I'm afraid I may ever forget his face.

I'm starting to forget how his voice sounds to me.

I'm starting to feel as if we both were never together before.

I'm starting to feel that I'm losing his love for me. :(

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Okay, whatever it is, I'm gonna stay strong and I'm staying put at where

I am cause I don't ever wanna forget those sweet, bitter, beautiful memories he's

given to me.

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Okay lah, stop being so emo already. Don't wanna make ppl tear

from reading my blog again. Now, picturesssss ~ :D

Camwhore a little at home as usual. LOL.

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You know now, other than camwhoring at home,

I did something even more stupid ! LOL.

I'm just too bored lah, no choice.

Have stop drama-ing these few days. No mood again.

Sot sot want lah me. Hahahahahahahahaha.

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I went to record my own singing on youtube and I publish it !

Yay ! So I'm on youtube now ! Holyyy ~

Hahahahahahahahahahaha.

But I now got alot pimples lah.

So if you happen to search for it and you found it, please

don't laugh at my pimples. Can laugh lah, but don't put nasty comments

lah k? I'll sad. LOL.

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And the sound quality not very good.

That's why my singing not as good as usual !

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

okay lah okay lah, gotta admit, my singing is not

very nice lahhhh.

I just wanna be on youtube and make a fool out of myself. :x

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Okay, whatever, you all wanna see, go search yourself.

I'm not gonna post it here or on my facebook until i'm confident enough yo !

LOL.

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That's sbtf and I before going to Johnny's and Ying's wedding ! :D

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And that's me !!!!

Don't know why smile until like that also. Kns.

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And, I braid my fringe like that cause I wanna air my pimples lah.

in the end went there, everybody talks about my pimples instead

of my legs. Hahahahahahahahahha. (Y)

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Okay, I think that's about all. I'll see what I'm going to blog over at our lovely's blog. :D

byeeeee ~

Tonight going supper at bedok 85 with lovely Gracey, kenneth and yifeng most probably. :)

Thanks people for being there. You people are the love of my life seriously !

You peopl rawkssss ~

Love you all to the maxi maxi maxi maximum !

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"No matter what you say about life,

I learn everytime I bleed.

The truth is a stranger, soul is in danger,

gotta let my spirit be free to...

admit that i'm wrong and then change my mind.

Sorry,

but I can't seem to move on and keep you in my mind.

If I live every moment, won't change any moment,

there's still a part of me and you.

I will never regret you,

still the memory of you,

marks everything I do.

I can't waste time so give it a moment, I realise,

nothing's broken.

No need to worry bout everything I've done,

live every second like it was my last one.

I loved you and needed protection.

You're still a part of everything I do, you're on my heart,

just like a tattoo....

I'll always have you and i'll always love you. swh."

Imaginary Boyfriend....

I went to have prata supper with Beloved Gracey and Kenneth

just now. And there we were gossiping why some ppl don'r exposed their

boyfriend. Maybe they don't really have a boyfriend?

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Then ah, just now Gracey drip a curry sauce on her arm and we

got no tissue paper,

fyi, i don't really got the habit of bringing tissue paper out,

then they left theirs on the car so lazy to go take and thus,

The sweet boyf of hers, Kenneth, use his fingers to wipe away

the curry ~ Awwwww , so sweeeeet !

I shout to them,

"I WANT A BOYFRIEND !!!!"

hahahahahahahahahahahaha.

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then after they left and went home, i started thinking to myself.

i know it's a bit stupid and I know I'm near crazy but just don't care about me, for now. K?!

LOL.

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I sometimes really do feel lonely and I always keep searching someone to be near

similar to Weihao. BUT THIS IS ALL SOOOO WRONG.

I cannot love someone who is near similar to him.

I must love someone for who he is.

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And then sometimes, I really want those Tender, Loving, Care from

someone special. You know, like those you got from your bf, or gf.

As in, your another half. Not your sisters or brothers those kind

of gf's love.

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But then when I get it , not exactly from the person I love,

I feel kinda irritated and annoying and then, for don't know what

reason, I tell myself i'm not ready for love.

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Therefore, I was thinking to have a "imaginary boyfriend"

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Yayyyy ~!

LOL.

So people, I'm attached for now.

So , if you see my twitter talking about my bf, is times when

I'm lonely and need special care, therefore, I will tweet those

nonsense. LOL.

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Wahhh , fuck lah, like that really cannot. I really think

i near to crazy already. Please, let me start work sooner

and then I'll train my leg to not limp so much and go back to

school and lead a normal life please. LOL.

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After I go back to work, other than using those money to take cab to and

fro from work and school, I'll save and put my dream tattooo ~~~~

Woooohooooo ~

please please please, i wanna start work. Hopefully, NEXT TUES !!!!

gosh !

Will update again.

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Please bless me to be happily ever after with my imaginary boyfriend.

No more heartaches, no more leavings, no more tears, no more breakups, no more heartbreaks.

k, I now don't know i want to continue watch my funshion shows

or do what. Or maybe just go lie down on my bed and press the phone

and emo until time's up then sleep.

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Bye people. And whatever I do later on or from now on,

please give me and my imaginary bf our blessing k.

Byeeeee ~ :D

A small favour from each and everyone of you to help me and friends to win wii ! :D

Hey everybody ! Some of you who's reading my blog may be friends on my facebook but some maybe not. Those who are friends at my fb have definitely, received a mass msg sent by me. "IT IS NOT A VIRUS" okay? :(

Got quite a few thought is virus so never help ! Sooo mean. We want that wii !!!! Please help out. So people, those who are not friends on my fb or those whom I've accidentally missed out during the mass msg, please help out !!! Below are the steps on how to help !! ;)

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First, you go http://www.facebook.com/SingaporeTech and like the page first.

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Then, you go http://www.facebook.com/album.

php?aid=380790&id=265770228503&fbid=10150215941968504
and find this girl, "Jasmine Yong" and like her comments !!!!!! :D

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That's all, it's simple and it takes only a few minutes ! Just a few clicks to help the desperate us ! Hahahahahaha. Ohhhh , please ~ :D

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Okay, that's about all, i know you all love me too and would definitely help ! :p

Your help is needed and appreciated !
thank u very much and love you all very much. xoxo.

NONSENSE, AGAIN ! -.-

Seriously, don't people have better things to do?!

FML seriously. Why keep aiming me and why i always

kena these kind of things?! :(

leave group, that's it. nonsense.

Don't wanna waste my time to entertain these kind of ppl.

and luckily he/she never show me anything but gave me web

instead. LOL !

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k, just a short update. byeeee ~

Okay, let's start here with a little small gossip , shall we?

Hahahahahahahaha.

First, I seriously wanna know, what's happening to this world?!

Okay, maybe these kind of things might already be happening

when I was younger but I only kena attacked like recent years

and it's getting more and more serious !

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Okay, it's not about the pervert masturbating infront of my webcam

but.... it's nonsense.... LOL.

totally nonsense.

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No offence to anyone. I've deleted your name so that nobody

can search and disturb you but I just wanna complain about it.

oh dear ~

sorry if you saw this and thinks that i'm rude or

trying to show off or blah blah blah but it's really nonsense to say these

kind of thing SERIOUSLY ! -.-

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I'm not trying to say I'm very attractive or pretty or whatever.

I think these happen to maybe everyone or those who anyhow accept

ppl at fb. And it just happens that i am one of those who will entertain

in fb chat since i got nothing better to do?

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okay, get this right, I am okay with making friends, as in , really is

just friends. But ..... What they are asking are ridiculous and i'm like

really speechless. 他妈的！！！

okay, here it goes ~

the above two are the same ppl lah. Cannot screen shot

all so i split and screen shot. LOL.

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OKAY NOW !!!!!

You all tell me. Is it super ridiculous and makes you go speechless?!

You mean nowadays ppl find gf just looking at their photos?!

Wtf. Got desperate until like what or not? -.-

&&&& , you think what?!

Some more, one no photo, later is some bah gay or some fat ass?!

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And I realise is more of the ugly / not so good looking ones always doing that.

ALWAYS !

LOL.

I know I'm a paika now lah, but who says paika cannot search for

true love and at least some more more of a average looking guy?!

What-the-shit !

Even if I really nobody wants, really have to go for those

ugly looking ones , I also would rather I go for those old and rich guys lah.

Knn, LOL.

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Okay, maybe a bit over. Truth is, I might consider to stay widow

for the rest of my life. Hahahahahahahha.

Simi shit sia.

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okay , enough of gossips, come, let's get to pictures then. :D

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Anyway, I realise I haven't been updating this blog for quite a long time.

Longer time even for our lovely blog ! :(

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I have been busy drama-ing, hardcore drama-ing. LOL.

watching 康熙来了which made me soooo happy

and some HK drama, and Gossip Girl season 1-4 and Grey's Anatomy season 1-7.

So can you imagine how long I've been slacking?!

Hahahahahaha.

Anyway, here to update with pictures !

Just in case you people miss me. :)

Hardcore zi-lian-ing at home ! Hahahahahaha.

and I only chose the nice ones. :p LOL.

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FYI, I HAVEN'T RECOVERED !

Stop asking lahhh , super irrtating. I'm still limping my way around

can can can?! Happy?! Satisfied?!

LOL, crazy. over here angry bout what?! -.-

But anyway, much better already.

"thanks" for your concern? LOL.

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Went to attend Johnny Ah pa and Ying Cuber mummy's wedding

on 12th March. :D Happy for them! omg omg omg ~

Felt sooo paiseh anyway. :(

cause i no money to bao ang bao for them then like go them

eat free. But i don't want like bo xim never go down like that. :(

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Saw alot of familiar and unfamiliar faces. Some still as friendly as before,

some super dao only ! Hahahahahahaha.

it's either.....

no. 1 : they see me don't know what to say to me.

no. 2 : they can't recognise me anymore. -.- ( which i think it's kinda absurd cause

i don't think i change much? except for many many pimplessss. LOL. )

Should be around there lah. But nvm, i still got my babiessss with me. :D

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Gossip, update each other alot. Hahahahahahahha.

Some never seen before but very friendly. Some outside liquid know want,

then just nice after i leave liquid, they join liquid. Such a small world. LOL.

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Anyway, they said liquid change alot. :(

Waitress change, customers change.

they say not as fun as before. Booooo ~

i still wanna recover liao go there and have fun but they like

that tell me. Nvm, I'll just jio those friendly and still in contact

ones to go down tgt with me when i recover. :D

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Okay, enough of nonsense, come, PICTURES again ! :)

Nellie baby and I ! :)

Sbtf and I de shot is over at her camera cause she's sitting beside

Nellie baby and I lazy and inconvenient to move over to her

side to take with her, so is before we go to the dinner and take,

so shall wait for her to upload the pictures already then take ! :)

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Me, Nellie baby, Sbtf, Christina, HuiYing baby. :D

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p.s/of course the above pictures is edited with the colours and

of course blemish to make away my forehead pimples !!!!

Hahahahahahahaha.

Inside my fb are those unedited ones. :p

If you're inside my fb, you can see it.

I never photoshop to make my eyes bigger hors. Erhem. LOL.

Okay lah, not i don't want to photoshop, is i noob, okay. Hahahahahaha.

Whatever ~

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Tadah ~ I know it's kinda irritating to post 3 times about

Gracey's 21st bdae. But I got no choice. Cause all upload the photos

at different timing. Hahahahahahaha.

So all of these are from Sbtf's digital cam. :)

Sbtf & i

Wifey & i.

It's been so long since i saw her. Hahahahahaha. :)

Alicia & i

偷吃-ing her cake even before she cut!!!

Hahahahahahahaha.

She too busy entertaining and we're like.....

H-U-N-G-R-Y !!!!!

hahahahahahahahahaha.

oops ~ kena caught ! :p

Let's all lick the cake tgt and not share with others !

Hahahahahahaha.

kidding kidding ~ :p

polaroids of us ! :D

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Anyway, change of blog songs !!!!

Kinda sick of all those songs already.

it's time to change !!!! :)

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I got the songs inspiration from Gossip Girl. Hahahahaha.

Hope you all like it just like how i liked it ! :D

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Oh ya, and i removed my cbox. Realised nobody's been tagging

and those machine operator or whatever it is called keep spamming only ,

kinda irritating and i realised ppl actually leaves comment instead.

So , here we go ~ :D

hahahahahahahahahaha.

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Shit, I really have no idea what to blog over at our lovely blog.

Will I ever ever forget him and the things we've done? :(

So sad.

Sigh ~

I miss him sooo much.

Hope he's in a better place.

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Alright, till here then.

Will update again soon i think.

You know you love me, xoxo. :)