ok ,, once again . i'm at thomson
using com . haha . but this time
with kelly . i know u guys are going
to say that my blog skins is in a mess .
but what to do . i like the design
but not the way they organise .
so bear with it until i find a better
one kks .argh ~ i dunno why i just
miss him so much la . sian . i
wanna learn to be strong . i see others
even though missing the other partner
alot ,, they just kept quiet and keep their
sorrow to themselves . they won't even
go and msg them and tell them . that's
so unlike me . i must learn to be strong .
i must i must i must . wad must i do ?
must i really contact guys then i can forget
him ? but i myself know that's
only temporarily only . sigh ~
wad to do . life's full of ups and downs .
i'll take it as it's part of growing up (:
i wanna forget him . i really
wanna do . it just feel so hurt la .
so hurt . so hurt . so guys gave me
their contact . but till now i still
haven't contact them . i put the
right choice by not giving them
my number . if not ,, they sure
irritating la deh ~ sigh ~ i really
dunno whether i should step out
now and msg them . i dun wanna
stay like this with him forever .
i so wanna meet him everyday
to care and love him and feel
his love and care too .
FCUK-ED MYSELF . turning emo
again . zzz . -.-

i'm currently at kelly's house now
waiting for her to be prepared . then
go my house then sleep awhile then go
peninsular then go paragon then maybe
off to thomson . hmmm ,, i'm so jealous
after reading so many of my fren's blog .
they've all found their happiness . wad's
left with me ? *laugh* we both used to
be so loving . loving that others will
jealous those kind . well ,, wadever .
but when we came to quarrel ,, others
will be afraid . i dunno wad happen between
us and i dun really wanna know . i just know
that he broke my heart . and seriously .
if u dun contact someone ,, how could u
have he/she's number ? fcuk-ed . anyway ,,
i can't be bothered to listen to his
explanation . and he always says : what did u
do in the past to make me trust u . BUT ...
he didn't think of himself too . i cannot forget
about xiaozhu's incident . sigh ~ although we're
not together . but when i ask him ,, why can't
he just tell me ? alright ,, maybe the problem
is we've got too much past and we treated each
other like fcuk in the past . mine was : jeremy tan ,,
timmy ,, rudi ,, jia he ,, dickson ,, andy ,, bikers .
his : bk ,, xiaozhu ,, yuru .
i know i did more mistakes than he did . but i
still forgave him and trust him cause i
know ppl do make mistake . but wad about him ?
he doesn't even trust me at all . hello ~
the word is TRUST ! argh ~ the more i
sae the more angry i am la . forget it .
let's let nature take its course . we're
still frens now and i won't bother to
go and check his account or phone or
wadever shit . why hand be so itchy and
make myself heartache right . i haven't been
given other guys my number till now and
i haven't contacted a single one of my last time
fren . because i dun wan them to think that
i got boyfren then never find them then no
boyfriend then go and find them . i wanna
let them know i'm not that sort of ppl .
sigh ~ ok ,, i guess that's about all
ba . i'm going to pierce smiley today . yay !!
*claps*

quarrelled and quarrelled again . haiyo .
anyway ,, i'm at gracey house now . lol .
kelly is here also . although she and ah
mel back together ,, but things dun
go so smooth for her too i guess ? i really
dun understand wad guys are thinking .
aiyoyo . tsk tsk tsk . hmmm ,, girls tell them
we want to be alone is want them to stay ma .
why ? why ? why must they really leave us
alone ? they dun understand la . so fcuk man .
but if they dun leave us alone ,, we would ask
them to go wor . so contradicting right . actually ,,
is it we girls are just so contradicting ? aiyo .
dunno wad to say la . wad ever . just wanted to
update because have been busy working .
lol . that's all . love is bullshit . it brings nothing
but heartache . dun wanna step into it again .

i went to meet him and pass him back the turtle .
then i dunno why i cannot control my temper and
i began to pack all the stuffs and put inside my bag .
and i sat outside his house burning all those things .
he throw his temper too and we began our big fight .
i went into his house and take more things . oh my ...
then we fight . then bleed because he threw the cup .
i accidentally threw away our ring . i wanted to keep
it de . but dunno why all mixed inside my bag and i
just threw it away . i searched and searched . i couldn't
find it . so paiseh la . search the bin . luckily when we fought ,,
grace came to my rescue . but he still beat me up .
that was the first time . of course i was sad . but i know
that was what i forced him de . sigh ~ i now know that
is not i hated him . it was just that i'm JEALOUS . ok ,,
i admit . dots * anyway ,, i'm sad . in the end . kelly and
baby came . i'm glad . but i still wasn't happy . sigh ~ they
already try to make me happy le . thanks . then i still
went to meet him in the end . and we promised to be frens .
we gou gou shou le . heh . but my heart still aches . OMG .
i dunno wad i wan la . my heart still wants to be with him .
but ... i know we couldn't make things out . and i rather to
be sad now than next time again . anyway ,, the wound is
already there . vanessa and grace is still happily with their
boyfriends and i'm happy for that . but things doesn't go so
smooth for kelly ,, me and baby . but i'm still glad we're frens . sigh ~
so if kelly and mel patch during weekend ,, so i'll left with nobody to meet .
then i'll go meet him and his frens . but if kelly and mel no patch ,,
i'll meet her then . (: ok ,, i miss my fren . PDF .

for those who would be reading my post ,, please add me in frenster and msn . (= sorry for the inconvenience caused .

kammygkx@hotmail.com

i am now so damn bloody angry with that someone can .
he deleted all my msn and frenster . luckily he didn't
delete away my blog . i'm so angry la . change my password .
fcuk . then deleted all of my guys contact list . then his leh ?
fcuk leh this kind of guy ! argh ! feel like giving him one tight slap .
why ? he can make girl frens ,, i can't ? well well ,, i shall show him
my power ! fcuk-ed up guy man ! see his msn jitao is dulan la !
wa ,, later going to delete all of his photos uh ! see le jiu dulan .
the more i see ,, the more i wanna beat him man !
wa ,, really is from love turn to hate lehh . power leh . fcuk it man .
have never been so angry before !!!!!!
hmph ~ sorry sherlyn that i didn't tell u wad happen .
i dun wanna talk about it anymore . anyway ,, it's over .
wa ,, i'm really damn angry now leh . can anybody just kill him ?
argh !!!!!! ccb ! mother fcuker . emo turtle ? emo lan uh ?!
i cursed him !!!! cursed him to have AIDS uh !
cursed him that nobody ever wants him anymore !
cursed him that he eat also will choke !
cursed him that he cross the road kena bang by car !
cursed him that he kena caught by police then sentenced forever !
cursed him walk also will drop into the drain fall down then die !
cursed him bu de hao shi jiu dui le !
cursed him cursed him cursed him !




ok ,, forget about that bloody idiot .
why get angry just because of one bloody idiot ?
he's not worth it la . he is nothing but one mother
fcuker ! an idiot is an idiot . cannot blame .
i shall delete him from my life from now onwards .
nobody is supposed to say his name from now onwards .
i'll get angry no matter who say .
i'm going to throw away everything that has got to do with him .
this includes the pig ,, the turtle and everything .
every single little thing that i see that will reminds of him ,,
i'll throw ! get it ! i dun care whether he likes it or not
because this is me !!!! maybe i'll return him the turtle
because that's his b'dae present but i'm gonna throw
away that dirty pig ! puke ~



actually wanted to go to peninsula de . then call anthony
he never pick up . i wanna pierce smiley .
ok ,, cool cool cool ~ i'm trying to make myself
cool down . i'm gonna do everything again .
frenster and everything . sigh ~ so troublesome la !
blame who ? that mother fcuker !

am at thomson now again .
lol . i just love their com la .
feel like bringing them back home . lol .
i know i cannot come here at night .
i only can come here in the morning .
therefore ,, i won't get to see him .
hmmm ,, i'm with grace now . she's playing
audition ! yay . i play till tired liao . lol .
hmmm ,, i broke up with him again .
this time is i say de break de .
dun ask why . i'm just lazy to explain .
now ppl ask about me and him ,,
i'll just say "zhe yang lorr " or change
topic . because i know wad they're going
to say . aiya . again . sure patch de la .
OMG ~ how are we going to last if this is
always going to happen . i'm tired le .
sigh ~ soooo tired can . i promise myself
not to ever be soft-hearted and go back
to him ? i dun really know . i need the
support from my frens . i hope they would .
anyway ,, i'll lead my life happily .
i'll show to him even without him ,,
i'll live happily too . but ... i still miss
him . suck-ed ! ok ,, stop it . this is so normal .
frens so there's nothing to worry about .
update again ! think later going tpy and meet
baby and slack ba . (=
i'm more than just fine .

currently at thomson now .
going to play audition .
so before i play audition ,, i
wanted to blog first if not
i won't have the time to blog . (:
went to sports day today .
the weather and everything
was fcuked up . so hot . and i should
buy the t-shirt xs instead of s .
so big la . hmph ! nvm .
then after sports day went to take
cab then went to ah dear's house .
then prepare le go eat KFC . heh .
then went to plaza sing . took
neo-print . (: then played rock fever .
then we came thomson . cause already
ten plus then ngee ann should be close le
then we didn't check the price of puma
jacket lorr . so sad . then just now the
pisang uncle call me . say my time for
work change . became thurs . means i
only work wed ,, thurs and sun .
actually is wed ,, fri and sun . uncle so
not fair la . dote on xiuwei so much
then all the long hours give to her .
fcuk sia . she wan to earn money ppl
dun wan meh . how can he lidat de .
jitao is bias lorr ! but nvm . since
i'm working with wanting and
weiping . heh heh heh . i wanna find
a new job first . i dun wanna help
that heartless freak to work anymore .
he dote on xiuwei so much then ask him
to call her work la if cannot find ppl to work .
why still call us man . she soooo good ma .
ok ,, dun say so much . scarly she read my
blog and thought i JEALOUS . please lorr .
i'm just not happy with how uncle
treat his employer . i simply just hate him la !

ok ,, school reopen already ! damn sians can .
same old thing . study study . homework homework .
argh ~ going to ki siao le la . think hao le .
if i fail my O this year ,, i'm going to work first .
then save money then together go take
private O with ah dear and maybe grace .
curious why ah dear ? cause me and him is
together again ! ahhha . i know u ppl would say
expected . so enough of it . if u ppl are going
to say that ,, save it . i've had enough of it . (:
friday is our sports day liao le . and i can't work
again . ): $54 fly away . BOO ~ some more our class
t-shirt got problem . eeeeyer . so not fair to my
brother winston la . know why brother ?
cause he has the same surname as mine . LOL .
but i know i can't blame roliah too .
she's also been stress designing our class t-shirt .
as u know . our class is so fussy la .
this cannot that cannot . oops . dun beat me uh . LOL .
and of course ,, i'm one of them la . =x
hmmm ,, ok la . update till here . i know
i keep saying i want to leave school . but after i leave
school ,, i know i'll miss my classmates .
sigh ~ but is the classmates not the school ok .
so ppl ,, if u have seen my post ,,
please do hold a gathering often ok .
i promise to be there uh ! haha .
and eh ,, kelly ,, remember we have to go bugis
walk walk lehs . u buy for ah mel ,,
i buy for turtle kks . heh .
hmmm ,, and uh . remember to design
me ,, vanessa and yours de t-shirt hors .
one month hors !!!! lalala~

went to meet grace and baby yesterday .
hmmm ,, after that kelly and amy came .
after watch finish hua yang shao niao shao nu
jiu went home . reached home around one plus to two lidat .
ok ,, i hate it when i get soooo emo at
night . and yes ,, i really didn't like it .
sigh ~
went to school today . suck-ed . i got really
angry and everything is pissing me off .
i used my phone during our break time at the
canteen at about 12:30 . and our school says that
we could only use our fone in the canteen only
at 01:30 . so ,, teacher confiscated my phone .
but shit them can . i'm having my break cause
i'm having lessons at 01:30 . they are just soooo
unreasonable la . and i know i couldn't argue
with them cause teachers are always right .
so ,, wait till friday ,, meet the parents session ,,
then i could take back my phone . darn .
and my classmate has a long hairstyle . so
that dm of that lj school ,, helped him to cut
it was ugly can . and he uses my phone to take it .
and it was inside the camera album . and yes yes ,,
i have a photo wearing school u smoking . and yes ,,
it would be shit if they went to touch my phone .
and i heard from vanessa says that the flat head
teacher says that he's not at fault . which means
even if i apologise ,, he wouldn't too right .
and he says that i would not get into the class
if i didn't apologise to him . as if i like to attend his class
like that la . i can always come in at recess time on
monday to skip his lesson then wed after a-maths go
home liao lo . then lidat no his lesson ma . lol .
so clever right me . but if i am force to no choice ,,
i'll just say "sorry la" and walk away . =D wicked wicked me .
but i just dun like the way my school handles thing .
i really wish to transfer school . but come to think of it ,,
wad for? it's only a few months left . i'm sure i can tolerate it .
and i can't wait to leave bowen . promise i wouldn't step into
it after i graduated . not even my favourite teacher die in school .
i'm not gonna step into BOWEN another step . that's it .
i hate BOWEN secondary school to the core and it is definitely a lj school .
ok ,, enough of my ranting . but after ranting ,, i feel
so much better . woo ~

PHOTOS PHOTOS of the past . (:

that was the cake for our valentine . and he was cutting it while i was waiting for it impatiently .

my cousin's dog . ain't she cute ?

my bdae present with editing .

that's w/o editing .

they are brothers la deh

How To Stand Strong .

and oh ,, he used to be such a wonderful bf for

the past few month . only until 03032007

thanks leh .

for me ,, a wonderful bf wouldn't told me

he think he needs to think about this

r/ship just because of a small matter .

anyway ,, i've already told him ,, that was the

last chance i'm giving him that time .

i seriously dun wan a r/ship that is sooooo

UNSTABLE .

that's how i feel now ? lol .


i wanna find someone who could always hold me and walk through ups and downs w/o leaving me .

2nd post of today .

lol . so fast huh . currently ,, two kind soul has

ask me out . one is sky and belle another one

is wayne . one is a couple and i dun wish to

disturb them but they say won't

another one is he know me ,, but i dunno him leh .

like weird weird lidat . later dunno wad to sae how?

hmmm ,, just not right leh . tsk ,, why i so troublesome

uh . got ppl ask me out also lidat . no ppl ask me out also lidat .

just anyhow grab one and go la . lol aiya , short short post jiu hao la .

ok ,, i've never ever woke up and feel so emptiness b4
and i tell u ,, this feeling suck-ed
but .. do u think i have a choice ? lol
anyway ,, i am currently rotting
at home . waiting for a kind soul
regardless of race ,, sex and be it a human
or ghost . just get me out of this house and
this shit . lol . how emo huh . poor me la .
that's all la . if i no go out ,, think i'll rot at
home or probably just go out alone and emo la .
lol

went to cine to find kel and mel

they was with amy ,, ah dai ,,

and two of their frens

actually plan to go rounding with them

that causes ah dai and amy to quarrel

sorry uh

but in the end we didn't go

after slacking at cine ,, amy went to find ah dai

then we went to cyber dome

the crapper ian? or aka wei quan was retarded can

then slack all the way then now then reached home le

he just DON'T want to go home

after much persuasion .. he then went home .

phew .

dunno really is it mel sway or wad

today so many couples quarrel la deh

all happen when meet mel .

lol . joking la

currently at home .

seeing two lovely couples at home slping ,,

hugging so tight la

then just now saw mel and kel

so sweet la

my god

this is my retribution la

promise not to do those sweet stuffs with

my next boy in front of my frens again

grrrr

i now know the pain huh

haha

that's all la . update soon . (:

2nd post of today .

ok ,, went to find my ex in the afternoon

then off to work

i burned my leg while working .

damn . so sway can

ok ,, curious about why ex ?

cause .. we broke up once again .

heh . dun ask me why cause u have to ask that bastard

tsk ,, i shouldn't have take pity on him last month

thus ,, causing me all this troubles and sadness .

of course ,, i have to look strong and cheerful on the outside

but i know how i feel deep inside

and furthermore ,, i dun like ppl to ask if i'm ok .

of course i would sae i'm ok la . correct ?

and it'll only cause me to sob more .

and wth ~ i shouldn't have took pity on him

that time . when he told me how much he need me and all .

and wadever shit he told me .

wad i am so important to him and that

he would change to be a good bf .

and wth . now ,, i took pity on myself .

i still have lots of stuffs to do now . changing of wallpaper ,,

taking back my stuffs from grace etc. etc .

if i didn't patch back with him ,, i would save the trouble ,, isn't it ?

and blame myself for neglecting my sis

and now ,, it's my retribution

i'm all alone when i needed them most .

how sad huh .

anyway ,, i'm soooo used to it .

now ,, i have to stand up once again

and i'm not taken aback to wad others says .

aiyo ,, again uh . sure patch back de la

my hell . and i will say won't de la

and they will say . listen to u say how many time liao

and of course this shall be the last post about him

and if i can do that ,, i'm sure there would be no problem to put him down

love? bullshit

i'm awaiting for the day when i can treat him like

how andrea and kelly treated their ex .

and i know if he came to me now ,, i would still forgive him .

and now ,, i would change to a cold-blooded animal .

i'm not gonna care about wad he says or feel anymore

i shouldn't have top my card and use the money to buy a new number instead

i shouldn't have let myself step into so deep when

i know this is going to happen

and once again ,, i'm gonna change my url and all

and once again ,, i'm SINGLE & AVAILABLE

anyone to date me out ? heh ~ =D

28th FEB' 2007

quarrelled with teacher in school

shi-at him la .

dun wish to elaborate .

more angry

then went to work .

after work ah dear came fetch me

then went to his house

then fell alseep .

then went home around one plus two lidat .

01st MARCH 2007

wow ,, so fast march already huh

one to two more weeks to my school holiday !

hmmm ,, went to an interview after school

it's about a show where we get to play with

zhang shao han and cao ge

we have to wear our school uniform

and of course ,, this will be shown on tv !

can u imagine ,, me wearing school u ,,

letting so many of my outside fren

saw me on the tv !!!

so ugly can . so me and kelly

straight away rejected la .

then went to work straight after that . (:

after work ,, same ,, went ah dear house

very tired but slept until twelve plus jiu wake up le .

02 MARCH 2007

went to school . nth much lorr

then went home . ah dear came .

then slack all the way at my house .

watch tv ,, play audition ,, eat then sleep

ah dear went home around two plus three as i was tired .

poor ah dear . couldn't get to sleep lately .

so worried for him la .

think am going to see a doctor .

ah dear found two holes on my hair !!!

think i'm going bald le huh .

haha . wad a joke .

maybe i'm too stress le la .

then mood swing .

i need to have a break in school !

and ,, i've been playing audition most of the time

when i'm online . so ,, sorry for the late update .

that's all ! (: