i'm back with photos again !

& lots of it. lols.

edited them. wahahahahahaha.

act one pretty only lahhh ~ :x

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anyway , i made a new friend yesterday ! :D

remember the james i talked about the previous post?

i search for him at fb.

then his pic like familiar but cannot confirm is him.

so i sent him a fb msg.

"you the one i saw at ttsh? lols."

so he replied yes and added.

so chatted over at msn.

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share both of our experience. haha.

funny lah. i think i can create a club

at fb recruiting all those involving in

accident already. okay , lame i know ~ -.-

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we both got our good and bad points each lah.

i may not be the worst , he might not be the best

& vice versa.

different situation , about the same surgeries done ,

so different good and bad points.

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just got to know one of my online khakis

going oversea for a long term and won't be

back / might not be back for long. :(

sad ~

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created a photo of us.

haha.

sigh ~ wish you all the best still. :D

i'll miss you ! & i'll find you 3 years later

if you're back. haha.

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peeeeeek-cheers for now. :D

nice right after edit. see the before and

after. lols. now then i realise no make-up

take photos at dark dark place also can edit

until so nice. bth ~ lols !

kns , i act one 'imaginary' princess.

lols. somebody slap me please. :x

who says sick people stay at home cannot

take polaroid? :x

lols !

ehhhh ~ like i forcing her like that ,

anyway , in a way or two , really is i force her lah. :x

-.-

ah ker ! stop licking !!!!!

then i realised....

ah ker will steal all of the limelight

if got her inside so i self take and edit !

hahahahahahah. :p

night version some more.

record 3?

hahahahahahahaha. kns.

step cool only ~

act like inside movie sia ~

crazy shot ! really like abit sot sot.

haha.

polaroid polaroid polaroid

& that's all !!!! :D

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enjoy people.

good de night.

i'm still thinking about what to blog over

at our lovely blog. so must wait for awhile ah.

hahahahahahaha.

keep you all in suspense. :x

anyway , i've changed the songs abit lahhh ~

if not like a boring keep listening to the

same song over and over again.

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finally ! people are asking me questions at

formspring ! if not so boring ! like what only ~

i still have the thought of deactivating the account.

nah ~ it's just my thought. lols !

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went to ttsh for check up today.

the dr introduced a guy name james to me

cause the dr wanted the guy to see my feet.

erm , something like he might be losing one of the

toe also. MIGHT BE ~

why? cause the guy got involved in motorcycle

accident. but ehhh ~ he seems so normal to me leh.

still can walk properly into the room.

anyway , i don't give a damn. lols !

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so the doctor told him my story about what they did

to me as though i'm at the exhibition hall and i'm some

kind of exhibit probuct.

keep flashing my right leg & left feet to show

him the scar and tell stories lah. lols.

i feel like i'm a creature ~

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nevertheless , my left feet is almost heal. ALMOST !

not completely yet.

the problem now is with my right leg. ( the damn foot drop )

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dr suggested to inplant a device into my right leg.

don't know what's the name of the device.

i tried to google it when i got home but i forgot

the spelling of the device. if not , can go search for

some images and post it to show and share. but....

TOO BAD ~ lols.

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so the device is sticked to my right leg which they

will slowly adjust the screw and make my right feet

back to normal.

it's going to be stucked there for months !

still contemplating whether to have it or not

cause heard from grace'y it's gonna be

sooooo painful ! "tian ah" !!!!

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sigh ~ but i'd rather choose that than going to

the TCM to twist and turn here but no effect. -.-

i know i know not one time jiu will have effect

but......

aiya ~ whatever. :(

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anyway , today is gfs day for me. hahahahahaha.

they came over to my place to visit me today !

loves much. lols.

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use webcam to camwhore a little bit here and there.

wahhhh ~ we w/o make up and photoshop got

quite a few already say we damn chio.

don't know what will ever happen if we make up

and photoshop sia?

hahahahaahhahahaha.

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maybe it's due to the lousy quality of

the webcam lah. blur and dark mah.

that's why who take also will look good.

but who cares? lols.

so the moral of the story is ,

sometimes it's nice to take pictures

with lousy quality too ~ lols.

sbtf , belle maire lee & me.

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online video chat with grace'y and she's

thinking whether to head over or not.

& then we brain-washed until her

& she came !

muahahahahahahahahaha.

yay-ness. :D

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anyway , my mouth out of shape cause

i was talking and my sis just click loh ~

bth her leh.

failed ! ( if she's gonna be a photographer )

lols.

then my sister asked us to do some pattern

cause she say boring , keep same pattern.

& do you realise the 3 of them had the same

pattern?

boring lah you all !

i'm still the best !

lols ! okay ~ whatever.

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ehhhhh , give me some inspiration about what to

blog over my lovely blog please my dear friends.

but it should be something before our break-up

de. help me think think abit.

thank you very much. :D

i suddenly want to talk about many things today. let's start one by one?
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hmmm , went to katong's hong kong cafe with grace'y , kenneth & jammy the other day. great ! you girls and guy is great ! superb ! thank you very much. :D


when i reach there i then realised me and weihao went there before with jasmine , tianhao & stephen. before we went to catch a movie. but i forgot what show already. :)
good memories though. :D
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another thing which i wanna talk about is weihao's best campmate buddy.
i heard from tianhao about what happened to him recently. sigh ~ sad story though. won't share about it but i do hope he'll be awake. please.....

i know weihao is somewhere out there , please look out for him too. his gf needs him & he's your best campmate buddy. i'm sure you wouldn't want something to happen to him too right? :(
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was having a heart to heart talk with my sister just nice. such a coincident my sister also know weihao's best campmate buddy. lols. so qiao , really , such a small world i can say. everybody's praying for you. even i don't really know you well , i'm praying too.

your gf would definitely cherish you even more when you're awake. do give her a chance to prove and do so ! :(
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i was taking a long look at our video just now @ my own blog. suddenly , i realise.....
i don't know if this thought is because i still cannot accept that weihao is no longer here or i've already accepted it.

i just feel like.....
it's as though we've lost contact for a very long time.
like you know , when you don't contact somebody for a very long time and you don't hear news about him/her for quite some time.

i suddenly feel very afraid. i don't want to feel so distant with him. he's the one i hate to be distant with. :(

but i guess that's also one of the fact i must really face with. :( sigh ~
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i suddenly feels that things always happen when you're enjoying life. i don't know why but i feel that it's always like that. :(

i don't really know how to explain here and i lazy to explain also but i just feel it this way.

but anyway , i still thinks that it's better to enjoy life and passed on rather than not enjoying and just leave like that.

i somehow still feels that i haven't done enough with weihao yet. :(

well , life still goes on for me. i still believe , i'll somehow find him again. yes , definitely.
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i did three things today; miss you , miss you & miss you.
missing you could turn from pain to pleasure if i know you're missing me too.
anyway , i still miss you; weihao soh.

hello people ! i'm back again. hahahahaahha.

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i'm stucked at home & i'm fcuking boliao ,

so i'm here with pictures of myself using webcam !

lols.

lousy quality but no choice , now only can make do with it. :)

the above was before i trim my fringe. haha.

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tadahhhh ~ i trim my fringe and zi pai , zi pai !

lols.

omg-ness ! i so feel like going out. am discussing

with grace about where to go.

might be going out tonight. yay-ness ! lols.

alright , will take lots of photos when i'm bored again. :D

wah , i think my hay wire went wrong , wire ziap sala !
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i don't know why recently i keep looking for girls at fb. pretty ones and i stalk them. lols ! so jealous loh. some really can get sooooo pretty ! goodness. bth ~ why heaven so unfair want? lols.
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anyway . went for my op yesterday. minor ones. it was better than the previous one lah but you know after operation immediately you will feel the intense pain on the area where they do the thing , so every time after op , i will definitely ask for painkiller through injection.
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this time , they bloody hell don't wanna give me through injection. but i just woke up from the anaesthesia , so i felt kind of dizzy , don't feel like taking or drinking anything yet else , i'll just throw up everything. they just don't understand !
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so i keep complaining the pain and they keep confiding me to swallow the painkillers. :(
so i don't care them and keep tearing as it was really damn painful.
so in the end , they bobian , finally give me injection. also don't know why they don't want give lah. zzzzzz. boliao ~ & i find oral painkillers is soooo useless. is not only referring to paracetemol. i'm referring to all , tramedol , acoxia , all lah ! just useless to me.
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&& i found new wound near my left ankle there when i reached home! goodness. suddenly felt a sharp pain near that area and then saw that the part was actually thicker than the rest of the bandage area so i pull a little bit and peek to take a look. sad to be true , there blood to be seen at that area. :( guess one more scar adding to my collection? lols.
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anyway , someone is gone in my fb due to some reason. am still procrastinating whether to delete away from msn too? anyway this person is a guy. so my girlfriends , don't think so much. i won't share also cause i want to be secretive. haha. secretive then sexy so i trying to act sexy. :p
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i'm tired ! but i don't know why i gay kiang don't want sleep. -.-
suddenly feel nausea ~ pui ! okay lah , sleeping soon. :)

What Are the Cures for Drop Foot?
By an eHow Contributor

Drop foot syndrome is also referred to as foot drop. Drop foot is a condition where the foot is not able to be pointed upward or side-to-side. According to the Mayo Clinic: "Foot drop is caused by weakness or paralysis of the muscles below the knee involved in lifting the front part of the foot." Drop foot often causes sufferers to have a high-stepping walk. The causes of drop foot can vary, which can make finding a cure difficult.


Splints and Braces
Braces and splints are often the first devices used to try and cure drop foot. The braces and splints often fit inside the shoe and help the ankle by keeping it in a fixed position.




Therapy
Physical therapy is another common way to help cure drop foot. Physical therapy not only helps strengthen the muscles surrounding the ankle, but also helps with joint flexibility.




Nerves
Stimulating the nerves can help cure drop foot. Electronic stimulation is used on the peroneal nerve, the nerve that helps lift the foot. Simulators can be battery operated and placed inside or outside the leg, just below the knee.




Surgery
Drop foot can be caused by a herniated disk in the back that is pinching a nerve that helps control the foot. If this is the case, surgery or a discectomy can be preformed to help alleviate the pressure on the nerves.




Diagnosing the Cause
The cause of drop foot can often be found by a physical exam given by a doctor. Other ways to find the cause of drop foot include magnetic resonance imaging (MRI) or electromyography (EMG).





i've been doing most of the stuffs already. but like a very slow treatment and very long to cure neh. waste time and waste money. can i just choose the surgery one instead? :x lols !

finally , my car forum has some peace. please continue to R.I.P. lols ! say i'm childish or whatever i don't care cause i'm still young what and i never say i'm very matured at all in the first place. if offended , please suck thumb and jolly well click on the 'x' at the top right hand corner of the page. :) guess you're not welcome here either? :)
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a guy came to add me recently at facebook and pm me at fb. he also has had accident at north south highway @ malaysia also. it's at the news also. the gf , this year 19 passed away. we just share a bit of experience here and there.
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he seems to be so much stronger than me !!! :( maybe i'm all cope at home. maybe?
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but what he says really do make some sense.
"the more you drag his life, the longer he live in the other world, don't you want him to enjoy sooner? Might as well he get rebirth and we wait in the other world till they end their next live. So we can be together again something like that? Can treat it as a punishment for ourselves."
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it really do make a little bit of sense hors. i jitao slap myself back to reality. i really don't want him to always suffer at the other world. but a part of me still doesn't want to let go.
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well , at formspring also got one annonymous asked me how long am i going to continue living like that? i seriously don't know also. i also wish i could move on normal like any others. like , go out have fun , study , work and meet friends to crack jokes and make me happy.
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but for my condition , i think it's kinda difficult here. for now , i'll try to move on still , bit by bit. :)
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there's been a guy who's free to chat with me online recently. we talked alot. actually i find him a little similar to weihao in some ways. haha. SOME only ! just like an angel sent by weihao to keep me accompany. :) actually now when i think of it , i also don't know why will feel alike? the feelings? but don't worry , don't think i can fall in love so soon.
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just wanna thank him for keeping me company and talking cock with me to make me smile. haha. but he don't seems to be answering most of my questions anyway !!!! -.- lols !
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alright lah , up till here ba. bye people ~ :)

how long do you intend to stay on with life you are living now?

i'm not too sure? i hope i could get an answer too? but why?

Anything That You Want To Know?

car forum is another fucked up website which i've found about nasty comments there. have already created an account to scold them back. wth ~ know such little information and yet say so nasty things. keep your mouth shut if you don't know anything lah.
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what don't have license get car , what 22 years old only buy car , what hao lian.
please lah ! you all jealous say lah. don't eyes turn green and say such nasty things to the dead can. think you guys must still be slogging your life away when you were 22 right that's why say such things. he's rich , he's capable what. that's why can buy car. can or not ! what the fuck. really damn piss sia.
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then what i not pretty still bother about the scar. jiu shi not pretty that's why will bother more mah and in the first place i didn't say i'm pretty at all. if i pretty for what still bother about those fucking scars.
and what our love didn't make out. he's gone can. of course i still need to plan about my future a little right? then what , continue with him and not getting married in the near future? what a joke.
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then what about seat belt and speed. & what sleepy , tired , whatever shit. please lah , none of your business lah k. really damn du lan sia. don't know anything can say so much sia. wonder what's wrong with internet. what's wrong with this world man. -.- that's all lah. bye !

formspring.me

Anything That You Want To Know? http://formspring.me/kammygkx

sorry peeps for not posting over at my beloved blog. but recently mood damn jialat. also don't know why. that's why so into drama lately. just wanna keep watching and don't think of anything else ba. D:
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will update when i'm better i promise ! :D
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watch so many drama lately. 就想赖着你，海豚湾恋人，爱无限，you're beatiful. hahahahahahha. so many loh. going crazy liao. anyway , i also insomnia. thus i master a skill , i will not sleep for 2 days and 1 night after that will sleep till i song ! hahahahahaha.
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more drama i'm going to catch. i miss you soh wei hao ! i so feel like shouting across the sea or whatever loh. ahhhhhhhhh ! -SCREAM- lols ! bye everyone.

i went to TCM today. :( painnnnnn ~
he press and twist at first. then put ointment.
press and twist again. then after that accupuncture.
the feeling sucks ! when the needle poke right through
you and hits your nerve , wabiang oi ~
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i cried lah of course since i'm a crybaby. :(
there used to be a saying like this.....
let me be physically hurt so that deep down in
my heart , i wouldn't feel much pain.
but why whenever i'm in pain , my heart feels
alot more heavier? really like piercing through my
stomach anytime. :(((((((
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i hate it , hate it why you're not here with me.
hate it that i cannot squeeze your hand tight when
i'm in pain. hate that i cannot hug you to cry after that.
hate that you're not here consoling me.
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i really don't know how long all these pain are gonna last.
just how many times must i go through all these shit again?
what if it really is not gonna cure and i fucking cannot stand
again?
actually i see my condition like that , i also find it very difficult to
heal already.
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i'm sorry if i couldn't do what i promised.
to go liquid when i'm okay.
to meet alot alot of people when i'm okay.
i'm afraid i'm not going to be okay.
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i saw alot of people in the news and other show about
handicapped living very well too.
i'm sorry but i don't think i'm able to do it.
i may not mind losing one toe , having scars on my leg;
looking ugly , can't wear mini skirts or hot pants or
even nice shoes or slippers.
but that doesn't mean i don't mind sitting on the
wheelchair forever.
i'd rather die if that's the case.
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people may see or think or feels that i'm strong.
but i'm not as strong as what i may seem.
dear , will you catch me like how you used to
if i fall for you right now? :( i miss you.

如果不小心伤害了你，你不要太伤心。因为我真的不是故意，让你受委屈。既然相爱了那么久，不能就这样分手。因为我们的爱来之不易，我真的不想放弃。baby so sorry , baby 别伤心，我依然爱着你，想着你。别离去，没有你的日子真的好空虚。baby 在一起， baby别哭泣，我依然疼着你，念着你。我的心，永远属于你。原谅我这一次，我真的好想你。不管你离我多么遥远，我会以至等着你。baby , i know you still love me. come back , my love. my love ~
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请不要分了以后还记亲吻过的承诺，你的永久已不属于我。默默低头，那时我很多话根在喉咙。你的笑，你的快乐不是我爱太多，想太多。爱放了手，我会装冷漠，比我先走。请原谅我，好像自私把你占有。一个寂寞就给我承受。爱过，哭过，恨过也笑过。亲吻过你的脆弱。其实我比谁都要懦弱。爱原来要舍得，我难过，我才懂。
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习惯了你的重量温柔的压在手上，现在却不得不放。习惯了你的味道漂浮在我的肩膀。想到从前的我们，我笑了，也哭了。我试这填满心却一再少一块。就算我对你的爱深得像一片海，重的我放不开，亲爱的我想我不会爱。
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城市里，人影交替，有多少机会交集？不期然相遇，意外的美丽，心动的默契。让我懂了爱，感情终究无可替代。爱，是变得很像依赖。爱，是想要陪你醒来。爱，想象你在未来，一辈子存在。想做你一辈子的爱。
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你说你还在，一分一秒也没走开。我想留在这里可是一切已经太晚。我不能再像从前一样，为我们的明天疯狂。你不能说，我没有爱过，说我没等过难过。我也想说，也许能从来我还是沉默。你一直问我的心到底在不在。而我怎能不遗憾就丢失了爱。我的泪，怎么就流下来？
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关于你好的怀的都已经听说，愿意深陷的是我。没有决定的以后，没有谁祝福我，反而想要勇敢接受。爱到哪里都会有人犯错，希望错的不是我。其实心中没有退路可守，跟着你错，跟着你走。我们的故事爱就爱到值得，错也错的值得，爱到翻天覆地也没有结果。不等你说更美的承诺，我可以对自己承诺。是执著，是洒脱，留给别人去说，用尽所有力气不是为我，而是为你才这么做。
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你说明天，就等明天。明天似乎离我太遥远。我在思念，只能思念。用思念填充没有你的夜。寂寞冲破了底线，在心中盘旋你看不见，任由心痛在蔓延，怎么勇敢去跨越？怕感情出了界，你的爱还在不在？全世界都在变，我只为了你存在。你丛然不言悔，却从不曾了解，我要不过就是能安定的感觉。怕真心出了界，怎么说你才明白？我已经走不开，幸福的门为你开。别只给你的爱，却不给我未来，我用什么等待？
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站在十字路的交点，该怎么走？我却只想回头。除了你给的爱我再也没有别的借口去拥有你的什么。你能体谅我有雨天，偶尔膽怯你都谅解。过去那些大雨落下的瞬间，我突然发现，谁能体谅我的雨天？所以情愿回你身边，此刻脚步会慢一些，如此坚决，你却越来越远。
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爱情是流动的，不由人的。相信你只是怕伤害我，不是骗我，很爱过谁会舍得？把我的梦摇醒了，宣布幸福不会来了。用心酸微笑去原谅了，也翻越了，有昨天还是好的，但明天是自己的，开始懂了，快乐是选择。
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我已经学会爱情的语言，可是却失去你我的世界。爱是一条曲折的线，将你我带往两边，分开的两个人，怎么都不能回到起点。陌生的城市，生活的考验，最近的天空，多半是雨天。因为爱情输给时间，所以要自己体验，不管泪水多显，有一天我会告别从前。在爱情字典里找不到永远，我们越走越远，两个世界。新的感觉也许偶尔会出现，怎么没有了你，都不对？在爱情字典里找不到永远，等到哭红双眼，我才发现，爱情有一条看不见的界限，我们都过不了那条线。
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谁，改变了我的世界，没有方向，没有日夜。我看这天，这一刻在想你，是否会对我一样思念？你曾说我们有一个梦，等到那天我们来实现，我望着天，在心中默默念，下一秒你出现在眼前。想念的心，装满的都是你。我的钢琴，弹奏的都是你。我的日记，写满的都是你的名，才发现，又另一个黎明。这是我对你爱的累积。
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你让我的董事变成一种幼稚，你让我的骄傲变得很无知，你让我的朋友关心我的生活，你让我的软弱陪伴你的自由。离开我，你会不会好一点？离开你，什么事都难一点。车来了，坐上你的明天，车走了，我还站在路边。风来了，云就会少一点。你走了，我住在雨里面。
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一个人完成，我们的梦想。你总说，时间还很多，你可以等我。以前我不懂得未必明天就有以后。没看你脸上张扬过哀伤，那是种多么寂寞的倔强。你拆了城墙，让我去流浪，在原地等我，把自己捆绑。你没说你也会软弱，需要依赖我。我就装不晓得，自由移动，自我地过。想念是会呼吸的痛，它活在我身上所有角落。亨你爱的歌会痛，看你的信会痛，连沉默也痛。遗憾是会呼吸的痛，它流在血液中来回滚动。后悔不贴心会痛，恨不懂你会痛，想见不能见最痛。我发誓不再说谎了，多爱你就回抱你多紧的，我的微笑都假了，灵魂向漂浮着，你在就好了。我发誓不让你等候，陪你做想做的无论什么。我越来越像贝壳，怕心被人触碰，你会来那就好了。能重来，那就好了。

i always thought i needed time on my own,
i never thought i'd need you there when i cry.
& the days felt like years when i'm alone.
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side.
I've never felt this way before ,
everything that I do , reminds me of you.
And the clothes you left , they lie on the floor ,
& they smell just like you , I love the things that you do.
When you walked away , i count the steps that you take.
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone ,
the pieces of my heart are missing you.
When you're gone ,
the face I came to know is missing too.
When you're gone ,
the words i need to hear to always get me through the day ,
to make it okay.
I miss you.
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挑一张耶诞卡写上满满祝福的活。地址写的是心地你能不能收到它？天有点冷，风有点大，城市宁静而喧哗。这一个冬天我得一个人走回家。有再多的牵挂都已没有权力表达，旧情人给的问候比陌生人还尴尬。昨天远了，明天还长。会议模糊但巨大。这样的深夜，眼泪要怎样不流下？问自己习惯了吗？没有你每到夜里回声变得好大。有没有什么好方法，让寂寞更听话。你最近还好吗？是不是也在思念里争扎？你说会记得我，还记得吗？你最近还好吗？忙碌吗，累吗，心还会痛吗？如果真不得已，忘了我。快向快乐出发。
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缘分让你我擦肩，没开口却有感觉。再回头，只能怀念。寂寞因你而强烈，熬不过漫长午夜。天涯挡不住思念，渴望着他年他月他日再相见。到那天，决不再让你走过我身边。沉默的习惯，愿为你而改变。心要让你听见，爱要让你看见。不怕承认对你有多眷恋。想你的时候，盼你能收到我的真情留言。问你是否愿意分享每一天，把我的遗憾变成感谢。
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常常责怪自己，当初不应该。常常后悔没有把你留下来。为什么明明相爱，到最后还是要分开？是否我们总是徘徊在心门子外？命运如此安排，总叫人无奈。这些日子过得不好不坏，只是好像少了一个人的存在。而我渐渐明白，你仍然是我不变的关怀。当爱情历经桑田沧海，是否还有勇气去爱？
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你撑着雨伞接我那次，已经足够我记得一辈子。我懂后来你不是不坚持，爱情本来就没万无一失。可惜爱不是童话故事，不能够永远依赖着王子。我最幸福的事，当过你的天使。趁鼻酸能掩饰，让我们像当时拥抱最后一次。最幸福的事，吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势。维持爱的人，左边心口保留位置是最幸福的事。那一阵子又你，美的不像现实。多高兴每一幕都微笑静止。我最幸福的事，牵着你的日子。最幸福的事，对那片海用力大喊永远的样子。想得起的事，那天和你傻笑的认识，是最幸福的事。

sometimes i really got the urge to like really scream at people's face.
something like........
"can you people stop asking how am i?! how would you feel if you're on my shoe?! do you think you would be okay?!"
wth...... okay ~ i'm just venting out and of course i know people are concerned about me that's why they would ask. but.........
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i seriously hope i injured my hands instead of my leg. by then i think i could go out freely and meet my friends and be free from all those sorrow. but i know i should be glad that i only hurt my left feet but those damn doctors make it worst and hurt my right leg after the operation. -.-
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i really feel i'm a burden when i'm out with friends. of course i know they wouldn't say that cause i'm their friends and they won't want to hurt me right? but hey , i know it myself.
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i seriously hate it when my mummy don't really understand all the pains i'm going through for my right leg and keeps nagging that i don't wanna walk and exercise on it. okay , i admit. i partly also lazy but really damn pain can.
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i really don't know what i'll do if the doctor really say my leg got no cure. i think Mr and Mrs Courage will come and find me by then i really don't know what i'll do.
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i don't think people really understand how i really feel though people always says.... "i understand , i understand..." but they only understand parts of the misery i'm going through. i'd be alot more stronger if i'm only hurt emotionally. but now i'm hurt physically too. it's gonna take a long time for me.
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i really don't know what would happen if i were to die one day seriously. like now , all of my friends have already moved on with parts of their life as i don't meet them and hang out with them often. so maybe if i'm gone , they won't be too upset right? it should be a good news to me. for my family , i think they can still take it. but seriously , i will need alot of courage if i really want to die. just hope they do come and find me soon. :(

my sister is soooooo sweet !
bought me an m)phosis slipper cause
on of my slipper spoil and i cannot
wear those normal slipper anymore.
only can wear flip flop now. :x
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went to have a game of mahjong
with Tianhao , Xiaosheng & Pearlyn
past few days. :D
head over to Xiaosheng's place.
so nice of them to let me play without money. :x
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i pok gai already , never work. :(
sigh , anyway , luck is really good when you're
not playing with money. i don't know is it only
me or it's just like that. -.-
flowers keep coming that i think i can
go and sell flowers already. -.-
i'm talking about the mahjong game fyi. lols !
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every love song makes me cry cause
every love reminds me of you.

i'll put your name in a circle and not in my heart
cause a heart can be broken but a circle goes on forever.

I know i'm in love when the hardest thing to do is.....
saying goodbye.

Loving you is like breathing , how can I stop?

I'm jealous of every girl that has ever hugged
you cause for one moment , they had my whole
world in their arms.

The spaces between your fingers were made
so that i could filled them in.

Once i dropped a tear into the ocean ,
the day i find it is the day that i'll stop loving you.

Meeting you was fate ,
becoming your friend was a choice ,
but falling in love with you was beyond my control.

Trying to forget someone you loved is like
trying to remember someone you never knew.

The shortest word i know is (I),
the sweetest word i know is (LOVE),
and the one i'll never forget is (YOU).

In a room full of people , you're always the first one i looked for.

I want to fall for you , so badly.
but i'm not sure that you'll catch me.

Anyone can make you smile ,
many can make you cry,
but it takes someone really special to
make you smile with tears in your eyes.

I want to be the reason you smile.

You'll never understand how much i love you
and i'll never understand why.
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beautiful love quotes i got from youtube.
just feel like sharing but i did edit a little bit of it. :)